How do I live with this pain in my heart this pain in my soul? I have questions as to WHY? What happened. If only I knew maybe I could have closure. I miss him so much. I want to hold him as a baby again and keep him safe. Thanks for understanding.
Carrie,
Thanks for sharing your loss and how you manage to live one day at a time. It's the worst loss in the world. I want my baby back. I want to hold him so he will be ok. Shan 43 passed away April 22, 2012. We buried him on the 28 th. I am sick. Can't sleep so I'm taking sleeping pills also. This pain is so bad there are no words fitting. I just have to know WHY?
Carrie, Thank you so much for commenting on my site. You are correct -- it is a horrible journey, and we are suffering so much. My deepest sympathy to you in your loss. Take care, Carol
HI CARRIE JUST STOP TO SAY IM THINKING OF YOU. ON THIS LONELY JORNEY.AND SO SAD IMISS MY SON SO MUCH.SOMETIMES. IT FEELS LIKE A DREAM.THAT IM GONNA WAKE UP FROM.BUT NOT SO HOW ARE WE TO LIVE THE REST OF OUR LIVES WITH OUT OUR CHILDERN.OH GOD WHY.IM SORRY.IM JUST SO MAD.ALICIA JESSE'S MOM
Carrie. My name ia Alicia my son 28 passed on 7/12/09 i miss him everyday im so sorry for you're loss.for me the nights are the worst i can't sleep got to take sleeping pills so hard to lose a child.I pray for all of us here on this site the pain dosnt go away we learn to live with it God bless you.. Alicia Jesse's MOM
Carrie. My name ia Alicia my son 28 passed on 7/12/09 i miss him everyday im so sorry for you're loss.for me the nights are the worst i can't sleep got to take sleeping pills so hard to lose a child.I pray for all of us here on this site the pain dosnt go away we learn to live with it God bless you.. Alicia Jesse's MOM
Carrie. My name ia Alicia my son 28 passed on 7/12/09 i miss him everyday im so sorry for you're loss.for me the nights are the worst i can't sleep got to take sleeping pills so hard to lose a child.I pray for all of us here on this site the pain dosnt go away we learn to live with it God bless you.. Alicia Jesse's MOM
I hope that my words bring comfort to those who read them. I am committed to teaching people the tools, like therapeutic laughter, to help get a little relief from the pain of grief when it becomes overwhelming. I think the term "good" grief refers to a couple of different things. First of all, instead of "good" I use the term healthy. I help people to grieve in a healthy way, so that they can adjust to life without their loved one. I also look for the good that can come out of any situation. Sometimes it may be a phone call from a caring friend or an ability to help others who have had a loss. May all be blessed on their journey.
I wasn't real clear on your message. Were you saying you were self-centered or I was? You have a deep voice? I'm sorry, my mind doesn't work as well as it used to anymore. Did I misunderstand?
hi carrie, i have been thinking of you. we need to stay in touch more , you have always been such a great friend. how are YOU doing?? i am just going day to day, minute by minute. my life is stale. i realize God has a mission for me and that is to speak to teenagers about the dangers of using drugs. maybe i will save a life. i hope so. i pray that you are doing at least ok. love you, valerie
Thanks Carrie, for thinking of me. I go through periods of time when I come here often and write, and others when I just visit every day. I have just come through another bad period - about 4 weeks or so. Don't know what sets them off, or how to make them go away, but there you are. The last few days have been quieter, but I know I will carry this forever. Sometimes I just pray to God to take me, I don't really know what purpose I have on this earth anymore. So I just get up and plod through the day and wait for the day to end. Seems like a rather hopeless way to spend the rest of my days. How are you?
HI CARRIE IT'S 2:15 AM GOD WOKE @1:40 I WAS CRYING FOR MY MOTHER AND MY 2 SONS JULY & AUG. WILL BE 4 YEARS SINCE MY BOY WENT HOME TO GOD AND JULY WILL 6 YOUR FOR MY MOM OH GOD HOW I MISS THEM ONLY A MOTHER KNOWS THE HURT WE FEEL THEY DO'NT UNDERSTAND WHY I CRY ALL THE TIME IT'S A URT THAT NEVER HEALS MY HEAT BRAKES FOR U AND OTHER MOTHERS THAT HAVE LOST THERE CHILD IF U NEED TO TALK judytaylor1227@live.com CARRIE THERE IS A SITE YOU CAN GO TO FOR FREE IT'S FOREVEMISSED.COM AND LEAVE A STORY AND SOW PIC'S TRY IT I DID FOR MY BOYS THEY R JOHNNY STEVEN MARTIN & SHAWN DAVID GALLOWAY U R IN MY PRAYERS JUDY
CARRIE THANK YOU SO MUCH. YES IT'S HARD FOR US ALL. I HAVE BEEN A BASKET CASE. JUST WHEN I THINK I'M DOING BETTER IT HITS ME LIKE A TON A BRICKS AND REALITY SETS IN THAT MY BABY IS GONE FOREVER AND IT HURTS...IT HURT SO BAD. I'M JUST TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. THAT'S ALL ANY OF US CAN DO IS, ONE DAY AT A TIME. ALSO PLEASE LET ME APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING IN TOUCH. I FOUND A JOB, BEEN THERE FOR A MONTH NOW. HAD TO FIND SOMETHING TO GET ME OUT OF THE HOUSE. SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF...ALL MY LOVE,
Dear Carrie,thank you for sending me your message.Yes it is hard, very hard.Paul was my only child,we were so close.Three years since Paul has passed,but the emptiness will always be there.But sharing it with other moms,who have walked in our shoes,helps tremendouly.Thank you for writing,God Bless,Geri
Hi Carrie, It has been a while, and I hope you are moving forward in your grief and are able to cope a little better every day that goes by! I just wanted to send you a big hug! :-)
Carrie, I have stopped being a part of this site. It hurts so bad to lose a child, the pain is unbearable, but to read the pain of others and to know so many of us are in pain, made my pain and hurt even worse. My daughter just had her 25th birthday on April 17th, I didnt know how I would get through it. I still cry daily, nightly, and cannot sleep. I just dont know how I will make it through this. I miss my daughter so much. I have handed this battle over to God, but I keep taking it back. I will never understand why this has to happen to such young children that have so much to be on this earth for. I wish it was me and not my daughter. Thank you so much for thinking of me. How are you doing? my email address is lcoon05@wicw.net
Dear Carrie, Thank you for your sweet wishes. I keep believing there must be some plan in place for all of us. We have been good mothers, our children have been for the most part happy, why us? But then someone famous said, "why not us?" I miss my daughters so much but one thing I have going for me is, I have no regrets. I gave it my best as I'm sure we all did & I loved them so much. Even with all that's happened, I've had a good life. I believe they would say the same.
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Thanks for sharing your loss and how you manage to live one day at a time. It's the worst loss in the world. I want my baby back. I want to hold him so he will be ok. Shan 43 passed away April 22, 2012. We buried him on the 28 th. I am sick. Can't sleep so I'm taking sleeping pills also. This pain is so bad there are no words fitting. I just have to know WHY?
Carrie,
I hope that my words bring comfort to those who read them. I am committed to teaching people the tools, like therapeutic laughter, to help get a little relief from the pain of grief when it becomes overwhelming. I think the term "good" grief refers to a couple of different things. First of all, instead of "good" I use the term healthy. I help people to grieve in a healthy way, so that they can adjust to life without their loved one. I also look for the good that can come out of any situation. Sometimes it may be a phone call from a caring friend or an ability to help others who have had a loss. May all be blessed on their journey.
Hi Carrie,
I wasn't real clear on your message. Were you saying you were self-centered or I was? You have a deep voice? I'm sorry, my mind doesn't work as well as it used to anymore. Did I misunderstand?
hi carrie, i have been thinking of you. we need to stay in touch more , you have always been such a great friend. how are YOU doing?? i am just going day to day, minute by minute. my life is stale. i realize God has a mission for me and that is to speak to teenagers about the dangers of using drugs. maybe i will save a life. i hope so. i pray that you are doing at least ok. love you, valerie
Thanks Carrie, for thinking of me. I go through periods of time when I come here often and write, and others when I just visit every day. I have just come through another bad period - about 4 weeks or so. Don't know what sets them off, or how to make them go away, but there you are. The last few days have been quieter, but I know I will carry this forever. Sometimes I just pray to God to take me, I don't really know what purpose I have on this earth anymore. So I just get up and plod through the day and wait for the day to end. Seems like a rather hopeless way to spend the rest of my days. How are you?
JoAnn
Yes Carrie, I try to come here at least once a day if not more. I am so sorry for your loss and I agree this is a place where I feel like I belong
Denise
CARRIE THANK YOU SO MUCH. YES IT'S HARD FOR US ALL. I HAVE BEEN A BASKET CASE. JUST WHEN I THINK I'M DOING BETTER IT HITS ME LIKE A TON A BRICKS AND REALITY SETS IN THAT MY BABY IS GONE FOREVER AND IT HURTS...IT HURT SO BAD. I'M JUST TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. THAT'S ALL ANY OF US CAN DO IS, ONE DAY AT A TIME. ALSO PLEASE LET ME APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING IN TOUCH. I FOUND A JOB, BEEN THERE FOR A MONTH NOW. HAD TO FIND SOMETHING TO GET ME OUT OF THE HOUSE. SO PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF...ALL MY LOVE,
JANICE
Dear Carrie, Thank you for your sweet wishes. I keep believing there must be some plan in place for all of us. We have been good mothers, our children have been for the most part happy, why us? But then someone famous said, "why not us?" I miss my daughters so much but one thing I have going for me is, I have no regrets. I gave it my best as I'm sure we all did & I loved them so much. Even with all that's happened, I've had a good life. I believe they would say the same.
Love, Shirley
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