Thank you for caring so much, the fact is I met you on this site and the people who surrounded me can not do what you do! It makes me think hard on "friends" and the world around me! I still find the world so useless and just want to sleep all the time but instead I froce myself because of the kids. I am so fed up with everthing and what makes it worse it is summer time, that is Fernandos favourite time in the world. I just do not see the sense of living!! The kids are so good to me even though they going through hell themsleves. They are watching me so closely and ask me what I have done and give me even chorse (cheeky, I told them they have to tidy still their own bedrooms and help me). I go out and have this mask on as I feel guilty that so many people such as my husband are ill or want to live. My head is a huge ballon aimlessly floating around and I can not focus unless I am in the car.

Thinking of you today! You are right I feel the raw pain even more.

Hurting, your family and you sound such a lovely family! I know, somehow the days seem tougher. The harsh reality sets in and the world is not our oyster but the big bad wolf. I feel like a zombie walking, talking and listening senseless. Everything is not important no more. It is getting worse father's day and last year it was so wiered and unbelievable.

Dropping in to say hi.

I guess my children are doing Ok. I am trying with all what I got to be how they say "get on with live". Any Baby steps you achieved?

Hi Hurting, I'm so sorry for your loss, and understand your pain. it has been 13 months and 12 days for me, and I also understand your feeling the pain will never end. I just this past week have gotten to the place in the grieving process where I'm not crying everyday and. I miss him everyday and always will I even feel quilty about not crying, when I do cry and I still do it is not for a long period of time I tell my husband everyday that he must give me the strenth I need to get thru the day. Believe that the pain gets easier to deal with I don't think I'll ever be the same but this is a new phase of grieving. I won't ever let go of the memories we have made or ever let him go from my heart,but we must live till god say it's time for us to go or we may never be with them again.Keeping them in our hearts and their memories alive they will always be with us and I'll never give them up, so as bad as it is right now you will learn to adjust to this new way of living. Virginia

hurting, you just creeped in my mind and I wanted to say hello!

I am getting by and keeping it together for the children?
The picture memorial is beautiful. I have pictures of him too alone and with me. Be online on Wednesday for you! hugs Hulya

Hurting I am thinking of you!

Thank you so much for thinking of me. It really means a lot. I keep you in my prayers as well. Take care.
Suzanne

just want to say i will be thinking and if you want I will be there for you online. Your are in my thoughts!

Thanks Hurting, I am thinking of you too and all those who have lost their husbands.

Dear Hurting in Alberta. I wish you sunshine to get you through your day. I am thinking of you and wish you were closer so we could meet up for a cup of tea. Love and hugs , Basia

Thank you for you thoughts and prayers. It means so much to know someone cares.
My heart goes out to you, by reading your posts I can tell you had a wonderful love.
Sending peace and comfort you way.
Marlena

thank you for the support. yes it's be rough and i never thought this would happen to me. i try to keep my day normal as possible you see i am disabled and on oxygen 24/7. I ask God why not me first but God had his plans Jim always said I'll go first I couldn't stand it if you weren't here. Guess he knew he had a plan his liver was bad and I never thought our life together would end. thanks again I will make it

Thank you.