Whats up with Tami?  Sounds like a bad allergy....how long has this been going on?  I know she said she hasn't been feeling good.....yes needs to see a Dr. for sure.

Well regarding Donny watching over the boyz.....he is a very big guy and intimidating for sure.....I bet they listen to him, he can pick them up with one hand and hold them in the air till they listen.....

 

 

For sure the next 2 months is going to be very hard for all of us.  We have to stick together , post often, and try and keep our spirits up (as much as can be).  New ornaments will be just fine Starr, new memories.  Sorry your landlord did that.

Anyway, I will try and get your address if your printer doesn't work.

Susan

 

Starr, I am in on the Angel tree.  I will send a picture to you of Donny.  I will ask Tami if she has your address, don't want you to post it on the main post.  I can send a JPG. photo to your email only if you have a printer.  Let me know.  Otherwise I will print one and send it to you now.

I am glad you doing a tree.  When Donny left us on Christmas morning, I couldn't imagine I would EVER have a Xmas again, but with a young grandson I had to suck it up and do the decorations.  I am so glad I did....I still look forward to decorating my tree and the very first ornament on the tree is the one that Donny made in Kindergarden.  That was always the first and still is....now I have 2 angel ornaments to add each year from services that I go to and they give out the ornaments to families who has lost people.

Again, glad you are putting up a tree, Michael will be with you when you do!!!

Susan.

Starr, thank you for being my friend. I will keep you in my prayers.

Anna May

Starr, thank you for being my friend. I will keep you in my prayers.

Anna May

Starr your words kinda scare me for you - are you looking for answers to your questions or are you just venting?  I hope that you can lean on God for he has been the source of comfort for my family.

Starrm, i went thru the same thing with my sons accident.   they eventually said it was driver error, because in Illinois if there is no evident cause they have to put it down, my brothers and sister refuse to belive that he was trying to avoid something, i got in to screaming matches with the corners office and the sherriffs office because they wouldnt talk to me.  there was no alchol,drugs,caffeine, nothing in his system his phone was locked in the armrest. and he had his seatbelt on.  the cornoner actually was banging on the wrong door and called from my sons phone and started yelling at me "why arent you answering your door, i have been banging on it for 20 minutes.  too bad he was at the wrong house.

Starr, I want to read your reports, I didnt see them on here if you posted them. Maybe you can direct me to where they are if you did post them. Thinking of you!

Star, thanks for the friend invite. sorry to hear all you are going thru while trying to cope with the loss of your child. I dont work, hubby is off from work for a few weeks and I dont feel I have gotten anywhere in the last 2 yrs. we get on each others nerves, just like before. maybe that is progress, lol. Amy would tell us, to go get counceling, but never understood the unconditional love of husband and wife and how we are here for each other and now we are going thru this loss. She was his only child, my 3rd. But she was the girl and so special, like my sister instead of child. I have to say it just sucks.

hugs. I think the heat is getting to me here in PA

Well at this point in your journey I can only say "hang in there" what you are experiencing is what it is.....be kind to yourself, one minute, then one hour, then one day at a time....

Susan

HI STARR SORRY FOR YOU'RE LOSS.ILOST MY BELOVED SON ON7/12/09.I MISS HIM EVERYDAY .IT DON'T GET BETTER WE JUST LIVE WITH IT.SO SORRY GOD BLESS YOU. ALICIA JESSE'S MOM.

I thank everybody for there though and prayer.Nice comments that helps me to move on.

Let it all out here for sure.  Everyone in here has been where you are at and would never judge what you post.  That is why this website is so great for all of us.  Everyone here has the "fog", the pain, the sick feeling of loss, the "whys" all the time, the guilt....all of it.  We just are all learning how to deal with it and try to have some life.  Our children would want that for us....as we would want that for them if we were the ones to leave this earth.

 

Honored by your friend request....hope I can give you some assistance in this new journey.

Susan   Donny's Mom Forever

Birthdays are hard, I always say Happy Heavenly Birthday... It would be beautiful for you to get some plants and plant them, you can watch them grow, take care of them, I am just re doing the garden I made for my son, It feels good to be outside. I will light a candle today for Michael. Maybe even get your other kids to plant some flowers.... It can be a little memorial garden. That is what I did and It feels good to get out there and tend to it. I also went and hung about 20 wind chimes all over the tree, I love to hear the sound.... I got most of them at the dollar store, and some of his friends had added a few. I hope you can find a little peace today, I know it will be hard, but try to remember good thoughts and cherish those memories.

Whats going on today? Remember we are all here to help you. I hope that posting the petition has gotten more signatures. If you can get up today (Im sure there is a time difference and you've probably been up for hours already!) try to get outside for a few, I also suggest taking a walk, I know it sound ridiculous but you would be surprised on what a difference the fresh air makes, even if it is just around the block.... you have to try to not let your grief take over you, it is hard, there are just some things you have to make yourself do so that it just doesn't consume you because it will... I am sure that Michael would not want this for you, I know none of our children would. Its a really hard road to travel, but you are not alone. Much love to you

I posted it everywhere I could think of this morning, if I need to repost let me know, I posted on Compassionate friends, Grieving  Mothers and Fathers, Grieving Mother, Loss of Adult Child, Loss of Child, Bereaved Mothers, I will email it to. Take a deep breath, I had a lot of things so wrong in the investigation of my sons accident, It was terrible, I too did a lot of research, I think it helped me to focus a little. Keep coming back here, It will help to let it out! I promise!

Do you want me to post it on the site? I can do that for you, or any where else you want it posted.....