Oh, I know Starr, this is a very terrible tragedy, I feel the same, it has to be a nightmare that I need to wake up from, because my Son would never leave me also... I spoiled him, I loved doing it too! So I do know where you are coming from. May I ask where his accident happened, and what petition are you starting? There are other mothers here that have started petitions, maybe one of them could help you... You are not crazy, you are a mother that has suffered the worst of the worst, you are going through something no one should ever have to go through! It is life altering, it is a shock to the system, the brain, the body. It takes everything out of you to just get up out of bed, to face a new day. We are here for you, dont ever forget that!
What city do you live in and where did this happen? I live in Martinez Ca, it is about a 45 min drive to San Francisco. I just like to know where people live to see if we are close or if another member is close to you, we have had a couple visit each other and have become great support for each other.
Oh Starr, I am so so sorry. Yes you were in shock! You probably still are. I wish I could give you an answer that would make it all go away and better, but it takes time, a lot of time, you just have to be able to hold on.... I can PROMISE you that is does get bearable, It is something that we have to learn to live with. Have you gone and talked to anyone? Are you on any meds? I have and I am. It is the way that I cope. I think I was in denial until this year, I just kept pretending that my son was away on vacation, its not a very good thing to do, I have been told that you need to face it head on. it helps the healing process, I just couldn't bare to believe it for almost two years. There are many many ups and downs, you will ride them like a wave, there will be days that you just want to stay in bed and cry, there will be days when you can laugh again, you just have to hold on... It is the worst nightmare that we are living, but you have to learn to live it. Please come to the group often and write whatever you want, it helps to get it out, and it helps to talk to others that know your pain! I too am always forgetting things, I will walk downstairs with a purpose and get to the bottom of the stairs and completely forget what I was going down there for! I have to back track and really think about what it was I was going to do, it is frustrating! Ask any questions that you need to here, we will tell you our experiences, it nice to know that you aren't going crazy, because that is how you feel a lot of the time! I dont know why you cant post to loss of a child from your phone, did you join the group? or did you just join Legacy? Do you have other children too? I have 2 step children that dont live with us and a daughter that is 28 that does live with us, it is really hard on siblings also, sometimes we forget because we are so wrapped up in our own grief, I even told my sisters that I couldn't deal with my daughters grief let alone my own....
Hi Starr, I love your name. I welcome you to the site, I know that none of us want to be here, but it helps, and we cant control our circumstances, so it is better to be with others that understand. I am sorry for your loss, I cant seem to find any information so If you want to talk to me and tell me what happened, I will listen. This is a roller-coaster ride, you have to hang on for dear life, you will have ups and downs. Come here any time and write whatever you want, we wont judge you, we are here to help and listen.