I know how you feel. every little memory tears me up. I never want to forget her, and I know you never want to forget your son. I think these memories are good even though they hurt so bad. I never want them to go away, I'd rather be miserable for the rest of my life. I am in an online support group that meets every night. People who lost a child like us. I didn't think it would help me, but for some reason it kind of does help. It is a chat room. If you want to try it, let me know and i can give you the info. Time to go cry somemore.
Diane, sorry for your loss. I know how much you loved your son. Hope some day we find strength and peace. I will think of my daughter every second of every day. Even though I sometimes smile on the outside, inside i'm crying. Take care.
So sorry for the loss of your son...thank you for your kind words...knowing that others are going through the same things I am makes me feel not so alone. I have only been a member of this site for a few days and already feel the support and comfort that I was hoping for.
Hi, It is so hard isnt it... it feels like they are just away but reality sets in and I become devistated...just fall apart. My other sons are just starting their lives as fathers and soon to be husbands....I cant even imagine dealing with losing my brother during what is supposed to be a happy time in your life. I am divorced...and alone which makes it worse. Everyone says go out...go find someone...how the heck are you supposed to do that when you feel the way we do? Forget that...but I pray that we all have the strength to live on...for them. My body and mind ache... after the shock wore off...i feel the wrath of the effects of the shock.
Working on this project has helped and yet hurt. It takes all my strength to go out to these fundraisers and be happy with their friends...who ...even though they dont say a word...their eyes are crying when they see me. They try hard...they call me on holidays..they want to know Im ok...I pretend...and I guess maybe some day I will even fool myself.
All our children were great kids...they had their momments...of course being boys...but darn it...
they had their whole lives ahead of them!!!! Why?
Why? Why? I will never know..never.
Reading the other stories...sometimes helps and sometimes just makes me feel even sadder. I miss mine and my heart breaks for ALL OF US! Every person on here! The stories, some are soooo horrific!
But thank God we have a place to vent with people that understand...as although my friends are caring they simply dont know what it feels like...thankfully!
I dont know myself if this hadnt happened to me...if would feel helpless to try and help any of my friends through something like this!
I was at the cemetery yesterday to take down the wreath and pointsettas I placed there. I swear to you I just want to lay down and die there with them at times. but I know that's not what they would want! One day at a time... that is all I can still do.
God is testing us...for sure....this is the big test...let's just hope our body and mind can with stand this test...you know?