It's been a while since I've read letters from other moms. my older son and only son now was real sick for a bit, and my focus was on him. I miss my Matthew so much, especially with the holidays aproaching. It's hard not seeing him and hugging him. I write to him in his guess book, not as often as I use to though. seeing a picture of him makes my heart ache that much more, but still I have them all around me. in my car on my dresser, in my wallet. you never get over loosing a child no matter their age. I am so sorry for all you have been through.
Yes, we have to keep encouraging each other. my email is firstname.lastname@example.org if you want to write more, I check my email more. "RUBBERDUCKY' was a song Matthew use to sing to me. it made me laugh, and if my email address makes others laugh, I'm following in my sons way. hope to hear from you again,
God bless, keep you safe, bring you joy, bless you with his grace and mercy's new each day.
DEAREST WENDY, I G DINT NO YOUR SON WAS SO CLOSE IN AGE ANG EVEN WHEN THEY PASSED,BELIEVE ME THEY HAVE ALREADY FOUND EACH OTHER,MY SON WASNT SHY HE MADE FRIEND WERE EVER HE WENT. THEY PROBLEY GOT US ON THIS SITE SO WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER,THATS OUR BOYS WANTING TO TAKE CARE OF US,MY SON WAS A MAMA BOY HE ALWAYS WAS,HE WAS MY HUGGER MY SMILER MY ONE TOO MAKE ME LAUGH. OH HOW WE ARE GOING TOO MISS THEM BUT WE HAVE TO KEEP THERE MEMORIES ALIVE AND WE CAN DO THAT. LOVE HEREING FROM YOU AND WE JUST HAVE TOO KEEP GOING SOMEHOW. JUSTINS MOM FOEVER PAM
WENDY I'M FEELING THE SAME WAY. I JUST LAID IN BEB ALL DAY. ITS BEEN A YEAR AND MONTH AND IT HAPPEN ON A FRIDAY THAT PHONE CALL THAT SAID YOUR SON DIED OH MY GOSH I JUSR FELT LIMP. I GUEUESS US MOM WANT EVER BE THE SAME,THAT PIECE OF NY HEART IS GONE. AND EVERYBODY ELSE YUST GOING ON.OH HOW I KNOW YOUR PAIN ITES UDESCRIBILE. MY WE GET THRUOGH THIS I JUST DONT KNOW I BELIEVE WE WANT JUST LEAR A LITTLE TO GO ON SOM HOW,I CAN SEE MY BABYS FACE I JUST WISH I COULD GET TO IT. THAT ALL OUR MOMS DO IS LIVE FOR OUR KIDS, WE HAVE TO BELIVE THER LOOKING DOWN ON US, AND TELLING US TOO GO FORWARD. THRERS IS NO OTHER PAIN THAN TO LOOSE A CHILD. I HOPE YOU HANG IN THERE MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. LOVE JUSTINS MOMPAM
I moved to another town in Maine, and now have a new email address as well. It will make you laugh. I check my email more oftern than I do legacy, anyway, email is:
email@example.com. Just in case you want to write me. sometimes I have a hard time putting personal things down and will in my email be more open, one on one. I hope all is fine with you today. I feel a bit depressed. missing my Matthew.
talk to you soon.
Hi Wendy, I dont know if Ive already writen to you about this, I wanted parents to write and let out there feelings.... The good the bad and the ugly, I think we can all learn from eachother, If you feel comfortable writing I would love to hear.
Hi Justins Mom,
I got your letter sent to my email, was it me you wanted to talk with. I will be on line for a couple more days and pray I don't loose you all, I will be having to change my email and it won't be up till the 7th. of Oct. I will be praying for you on the 3d. I do understand. It's been 25 months come the 2d of Oct for me. So Your son went home one year and one day after Matthew. If it's any comford, they are probably very good friends. Matthew was strong in the word. And he also was on year younger than justin. He was only 30. I do understand. if you want to write me again, I am here for you. until the 1st. then I will get back on line the 7th. Hope to talk to you soon, My prayers are with you.
I HOPE YOUR DAY IS A BLESSED ONE. THIS IS HARD TIME FOR ME IT WILL BE A YEAR OCT.3rd IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY, BUT YET FOREVER. I LOST IT YESTERDAY HOPING TO BE STRONGER TODAY,BUT WHO KNOWS. WE JUST HAVE TO HANG TUFF AND KNOW THEY ARE TAKEN CARE OF,I KNOW ITS EASIER SAID THAN DONE IT THE WORST PAIN THAN ANYONE WILL EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH,AS U KNOW. MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. JUSTINS, MOM
I haven't heard from you since you where going to see that sycic, I worry about you and would like to see how you are doing, I wish you would email me. and give me your email address, next week I am moving and will have to change email address, It's in a different town, so the cable company is different. Hope to hear from you soon. (firstname.lastname@example.org).
I really would like you to write to me on my email address. email@example.com
sometimes things are difficult to say where everyone reads it.
Iwill keep you in prayer tomorrow. Please be careful.
Hi Wendy! Of course you didnt say anything wrong to me! I need everyone to keep talking and say whatever they feel, I am just going through it right now and I dont get on here as much as I want to... I am going to a medium tomorrow and I am excited but scared at the same time.... I will write about it after, it will be recorded and she is acredited and I know 2 other people that have went to her and she is really good. I hope that things are going good with you, Dont think that I have forgotten all of you on this site, I think of each of us and all that we share in common now, we are all sisters and brothers connected by our angels! Love to you! tami
Are you OK? I haven't heard from you in a while. I know things are hard for you right now. I just want to keep in touch with you. In two weeks I will be moving to another town here in Maine, I would really like to have your email address so I don't loose you. Where I am moving, they have a differant cable company, and that is what my internet will be on. If you would like to keep intouch with me. Miss hearing from you. I pray all is ok with you.
How are you doing? Miss hearing from you. Could I have your email address, you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Until the 1st of Oct. then I will have a new email as I am moving to another town and they have a different cable co. and I don't want to loose touch with you or others. I hope I get a letter from you to know how you are.
Hi Wendy... Sorry but I didnt get the long letter you wrote... Yes the 22nd was a hard day.Just to think that he has already been gone two months it seems impossible! I went online and bought a charm bracelet with all of the charms that remind me of Joey, I recieved it today, It will feel good having things right there that remind me of him and things he loved. You should check it out, it is so affordable,
When i put it together I will take a picture, I found a site that is really good prices on sterling silver, I am going to keep adding onto it, I was just looking at Matthew, SOOOOO HANDSOME. I needed to ask you if when this first happened to Matthew did your mind never stop thinking about him? Mine just keeps going, All I hear is Joey, Joey, Joey, over and over again.... even when I am talking, I almost feel like Im schizophrenic because I keep hearing this. I am very appriciative that you are here for me to talk to and I hope that you will share with me too. Thank you so much Wendy for caring, I dont think anyone will understand unless they have been here. Love to you and Matthew.
This was taken on Matthew's 30th birthday. Two months 20 days later, he was home with the lord. I look forward to talking to you more. It's hard when you loose a parent, a relative, but I found the greatest pain was loosing Matthew, He was my baby. I love his older brother with all my heart, but Matthew was very close to me. My mother died when I was 8 yrs. old, of lung cancer in my arms. My sister Nancy died on Thanksgiving day 8 years ago, from lung cancer, as I sang amazing grace to her and held her hand. Now my oldest sister Pat has lung cancer and just turned 60 last month. I'm dealing with a friend whom I use to work with that has battled Hodgkins Lymphoma for 5 years now. I believe God has giving me strength to endure these heart aches to help others cope with their pain, I have no formal training, just the personal trials in life. So, I really would like to get to know you and others better as well. I sent you my email address so I could share more personal letters with you. I look forward to hearing from you again. and know you are in my prayers for Gods grace to help you. I believe He will.