Thank you Sue your reply has helped me understand some things. I still have so many questions Questions that i may never know the answers... I have read every entry on this site and the people here are very caring and understanding i am so glad i have found it. I sorry for the lost of your brother.you are in my prayers.Again THANK YOU!!!
Thank you Sue for your encouragement and insight. I have been reading your replies to others on here and admire that even through your grief, you still reach out and help others. It 's a very admirable thing to be able to do.
Sue thank you for the very understanding and kind words . I still to this day do not understand why Denise left the way she did but thru my SOS group here in Philly .I have started to "lighten up " on myself . Again thanks ..
I wish I could get it I don't understand and all I know is how selfish he is if he was going to take himself that is bad enough but why did he feel the need to take her from us? I can't even figure out how to mourn it or let alone to get over it.
Thank you for your comment. My sons and I are having a very difficult time understanding why this has happened with there father, We were a very close family and we never would have thought that he would have done something like this. He had gone down to the river and had drowned, they were alot of issues surrounding his job and so many unanswered questions, he was a very strong individual mentally and physically and we just have to believe that it was his time and God wanted him home and we will know the answers when we return home but it is so difficult at times wondering what really happened. My heart breaks for my children and grandchildren but I do know he is watching over and sending us his love
Sue - I wanted to respond to your encouraging words and thank you for them. I'm discovering people who carry the same hurt and burdens - it's like no other - and even those who have lost loved ones this isn't quite the same place. I know that Michael's mind was in a state of panic, anxiety and confusion, plus he was experiencing a bunch of symptoms that the doctor was sending him to a neurologist for testing. We will never know what pain pushed him to do what he did and I cry about that too, and because I couldn't save him, or help him. my husband is hurting just as bad, but even more because this is the second child he has lost (his daughter to cancer just a year before we met). I think we will need a counselor to help us through - I don't want us, Larry and I, to lose each other through this. Right now your website is a life line for me. Thank you for being here.
You don't know how much I appreciate your kindness. I've been so numb since my niece committed suicide. I felt like I was just starting to recover from my sister dying from cancer 4 1/2 years ago, and now this, and a 5 month baby to boot. I keep blaming myself for not doing enough to save my niece. (Penny) I was the last one in the entire family to have had a conversation with her in person, only two days before this happened. I suggested again, like all my family had since her mom died, to get help for her depression, but she never would. When we had the awful job cleaning out her apartment, we found many awful journal writings that suggested that she had become schizophrenic. None of us knew. She hid it so well from us all. How could we have missed it? Like I said, I feel so terribly guilty. The last thing I told my beloved sister before she died was that I would take care of her kids. I feel like I really let her down.