denise thank you i now know that i am not the only one with this problem my carologist has given me pills but i never touch them they were to relax me at night time: i am not taking somonix before bed. i just started them last night. hopefully this would help me because i do not know what else to do, i miss my husband more and more each day i have his picture on my cell phone that is the only thing i have of him that i can look at each and every day again thanks
i thank you so much for all the wonderful and kind words you have offered to me. and i only knew jim 2-1/2 years. 40 years. wow! i know now, at 45, that is something i will never experience. i have always been envious of those who have had a long term love like that.
i lost my first love, at 18, 27 years ago, due to a motorcycle accident. he died after 9 days on life support. i then married an abusive maniac, left him after 10 years, and raised/supported my 2 kids completely on my own for the last 14. i met jim, and he, in my 17-year-old daughters words, was 'more of a father to me than my dad will ever be'.
lucky, i have been told to fall so completely in love twice (jims mom tells me this), even though it was short lived, for some never find something that special in a lifetime. i am not so sure. what a dream it would have been to experience what you and your husband did.
Hi Denise,yea I lost my hiusband to bile duct cancer he lasted 2 1/2 yrs after being diagnosed and we were together 39 yrs. I know how u feel, sometimes I feel I can't and don't want to go on. I have two boys one 27 and he has his own hose the other one is 25 and home with me and I have another boy, family friend living with me and they do help me but I cry every day. Dave past away Dec 09..can't believe he's gone we had so many more things to do. I know everyone says this will pass but I will never forget him....we just have to hang in!
My husband of 32 years also passed away on Oct.20th, 2009.
He had lung cancer and really suffered the last 8 months of his life. It hurt to watch him go through all that he did.
I have no energy or desire to be around people on Christmas.
We had no children together but he had 4 by his first wife. Two of them are not speaking to me at this time so that makes it hard.
I miss him so much!
Denise, I saw your poem when I responded to another member's message. I have to tell you, it is so very lovely and precious - a simple, concise way of expressing a profound truth. It really speaks to my condition as well. Thank you for sharing it.
Thank you Denise.Finally someone who understands.My life to ended with Doris passing.She may be in a better place but I want her with me.She went down hill all year and we could do nothing to stop it.We went to the hospital in Houston and she was there 31 days before the end.I run if I see people we knew.I cant even talk about it yet.I avoid any place we went together because I could never get those words out of my mouth.I cry myself to sleep and wake up crying.I have family, I have friends but all I want is Doris.Not long ago Doris gave me a card.She wrote, The day I met you was the luckiest day of my life,, LOve you always, Doris. You are so right, with that loss always goes the future dreams, fantaises, any anything that means something.You understand how hard it is watching that love of your life be so sick and you can do nothing about it.I think now its possible to die of a broken heart.Thank you again