Thank you Sharon for your kind words. Yes, we can overcome the grief period but I don't believe we will ever overcome the loneliness. Helping others is a good remedy to forget ourselves and help those who are less fortunate that we are.
Keep trusting the Lord and continue to put your faith in him and He will see us through this difficult time in our lives.
God bless you.
I have a rememberence urn so I guess Barry kept his promise also. His kids came from out of state to spread his ashes. I couldn't do it. I did have a memorial service for him though. I have his urn in between my parents urns.
he promised he wouldn't ever leave me. I logically know his body gave out but emotionally I feel he broke his promise. How do you stop feeling so alone? Even if there are your friends and family you are alone.
Sleep what's that. I am kinda starting to get longer stretches but that only adds up to 4 hours a night but I can sleep all day long but I cant do that to the kids. I dont know what all that is up there but I just tried to up-load a picture. Going to try and sleep now. I like to put pillows behind me to make it feel like he is next to me:(
I am going to go. I am hoping that my son and the baby do not want to go because of how anxious they make me. I would be a nervous wreck the whole time. I want to relax and enjoy myself. I hate having such anxieties. And then I feel guilty because I can't be around them but so much without having an attack.
Maybe then I will try it. Just not this weekend with Bryan and the baby being there and it being my anniversary weekend. Shoot I might just want to drown my sorrows in a bottle of wine and good anxiety pills! lol. Not really. Did I tell you that my daughter asked me to come to Richmond on Sunday for a wine festival? That will be nice and will keep me out of the house all day. If I stay there, I might go a little crazy.
I just heard back from my daughter. I told her that one thing she should do now is to tell Linda how much she loves her and have the kids tell her too. It will be comforting for all of them. Also, it is something dear to hold to her heart.
That is true. Maybe if my son wasn't coming over I could paint it. Or then maybe next weekend. The one thing about the bedrrom there is that if I got it on the floor, it would not make much of a difference because the floor is wooden and is not in good shape. I don't know Sharon. Have you ever pained by yourself? The thought intimidates me.
That is what I thought. It could use a real good paint job because the people who owned the house before Lou used it as a baby's room and there is a bear trim going around the wall. I will not paint the wall though. I don't have enough confidence in myself to think that I could even begin to paint something. I am afraid my anxieties would get the best of me and I would really freak out. But I can take out the bed and just straighten it up. The office gave me a nice table with drawers that I can put in there. I have to pick up some wood glue to reinforce one of the legs. I have been wanting to find a picture of an antique shoe that I can glue some beads on to hang up in there. I have been calling the room my bead and shoe room anyway. I thought that would look cute.
It does help and I don't really care what anyone thinks. We have to do what we have to do to get through these difficult days. I have to say too that when Lou first said to me that he wanted to be cremated, I was not really sure about that but I am so glad now that he was, because he is at home with me and I never have to go to the cemetary to talk to him. That is a comforting thought. I will be glad when this day is over. I am ready to leave but I have an hour and a half to go. I am going to Walmart when I leave here. That is always exciting. Not! I am thinking of changing one of the rooms around by taking out the bed and making it into just a spare room with my clothes, shoes and desk where I make my jewelry. No one hardly ever sleeps in there. When my son and the baby is over, they sleep on the couch, which is weird because I have two spare beds.
Yes we do have each other and I know I can tell you anything and you don't treat me like I'm weird. I told the girl fixing my hair last night that I sleep with Lou's fire chief helmet in my bed and she just kind of went ooooohhhhh! Like I was really weird. What is wrong with that? Obviously, she has never lost someone as close to her as a husband or she would understand.
That is funny. I was thinking for a while that it was all the sadness and death on Grey's and then Private Practice that set me off. I try not to fixate on those things for any length of time because it is disturbing. Sometimes I can't help it but I see that I am not alone.
That is a good way to look at it and I wish I could but I think what I would remember would be the way he looked at me as he was dying. That would be more than I could handle. I thought about that over and over last night when I was trying to go to sleep. I thought I was going to cry myself to sleep but I finally stopped crying. See you are stronger than you thought you were. You also see the good in almost everything and that is an admirable trait.
It is a hateful disease. Lou was an eye donor. I don't remember what part they use but anyway in yesterday's mail I got a thing from the eye bank saying that Lou's gave sight to two people, then went on to tell me how I can contact these two people. OMG, I am sure it is something that alot of people would want to do but not me. It upset me that they would even suggest such a thing. I was not happy with the way they handled the whole incident of his eyes. He wasn't even gone 30 minutes before they called me.
My daughter just contacted me to tell me that her step-mother, whom she dearly loves, just found out that her breast cancer has mestasized. She had both breasts removed last year and the cancer came back this year. They tried chemo but it did not work so they went in and removed muscles and other stuff. All the biopsies came back positive. I feel bad for Wendy. Her grandmother died on Sunday before Lou passed away and now it is not looking good for her step-mother. -
Thank you. Glad you liked them. I use basic simple designs because I have not learned any real complicated designs yet, except for the one bracelet. I learn alot from the other ladies at the beading social. They have been doing it for years and I only started last November. That is one of the reasons why I like going.