Hi Michelle, its is awesome the love you have for your mom - all we can do is to continue to love and not shut down - My hope for you is that you do heal but not forget your mother - Love is so powerful - so continue to love yourself in the actions you do and it will help you get thru
That is true. All you can do is keep their spirit alive. I am now going through a rollercoaster again as I jest got engaged about a month ago and would have had my Dad walk me down the aisle but now that he is gone I'm going to ask my little brother. He is my only other full blood sibling and he looks just like a younger version of my dad.
Well, I hope the New Year brings you new promise and I hope that your struggle lessens with each day that passes. And, dont forget to tell yourself to "just keep swimming"!
Thank you for your kind words and know you are not alone with your feelings but Know that you can survive, even if you feel you can't.Intense feelings of grief can be overwhelming and frightening. This is normal. You are not going crazy; you're grieving. Grieving takes so much energy that other things may fade in importance. sometimes even your Husband and children take second place to the overwelming feelings of grief. For a time mine own kids took second place . Not to mention my Job.
some days even now I just feel like staying in bed. But as they said "life goes on " Keep asking "why" until you no longer need to ask.Healing takes time. Allow yourself the time you need to grieve. Take care and keep in touch
Hi Michelle,I have had depression for most of my life and have attempted suicide before. But I have kids now and would not want them to feel like you do right now. I am so sorry for your loss and can feel your pain through your words here! I would like to to get help. I would like you to join a group and possibly get on medication until some of this pain passes. I don't know if it will ever go away. But think of the medicine you may be on as a treatment like for any illness, like diabetes or a heart condition.
I am on a natural remedy called Mood Positive by Natrol. It has 5 htp, B vitamins and amino acids in it and it helps me.
I also went back to exercising. It lifts my spirit a bit. My Dad just died on October 3rd. He did not commit suicide but he is gone. I read a good help guide called " The Mourning Handbook" It helped me.
I would grab anything and everything except alcohol or illegal drugs to help you.
I am so sorry that this has happened to you.
I have been so down and out that I have tried the out your Mom chose. Please take care of yourself.
Let me know if you want to talk!
I lost my Dad to suicide just over a month ago. I dont know why and it is really confusing. I know how you feel about the feeling of them not being there for your big life moments. It is weird to think that my babies will never know their Grandpa and I will have to have my brother walk me down the aisle when I get married. I dont have any advice for you but figured I would let you know you are not alone in your struggle. You just have to believe that they are in a better place now and are finally at peace.
Thanks for your note. I'm sorry about your Mom.
I cannot imagine your pain. It is different than losing somebody to an illness. Where do you live?
I can only say that your Moms choice had nothing to do with what she felt about you. It doesn't mean she loved you any less by making that choice.
Write me back. I am looking for new friends who are greiving as much as I am.