for quite a long time i do not come to LegacyConnect website - for a long time i've been searching and searching in order to find a road to go through - and yes, i finally made it. i am visiting the website today and want to say hi! hope you are doiong well.
i am grateful for your presence at the time i so much needed! my heart says thank you!
I lost my dad in January and know exactly how u feel.He only survived 6months after his diagnosis of lung cancer.I kept waiting to wake up from this nightmare.I was very close to my dad and haven't accepted this happening to him.I still feel lost and angry.I was at home to check on my three kids and wasn't there for his last breath either.I beat myself up over that still.I read your message and just wanted to say that I understand exactly how you are feeling and I know now that I'm not the only one who feels this way.This is the first time I've opened up about my feelings towards any of this.I won't even talk to Hospice.They came to his house once for an interview,me and my mom thought we could take care of him ourselves,he even told his doctor that he had us and didn't want Hospice there, and the very next day he passed.My thoughts are with you.
Today is 2 years since my dad died of liver cancer. It seems like yesterday. Still there is this huge void in my life. He was 54 years old. He went so fast! I thought there would be so much more time. Our family fell apart after he died. Sometimes i live this life like a zombie going thru the motions but, just existing. "How do you mend this broken heart?" I don't know! All I can say is I am sorry for your loss. I tell myself every day someday we meet up again. I hope for all of us this is true!
I am so sorry, Michelle, about your Dad. I lost my Dad in 2001 - 8 years ago, but he was "gone" before then because he had Alzheimers and slowly we lost him as you lost your Dad over time. I know that the decision to put your father into hospice is hard, as it represents the fact that he is dying, a hard concept, at least for me, to understand how one moment a person can be breathing and alive, and then the next moment gone. I remember when we moved my Dad into hospice and had to stop his feedings because he basically was comatose. It was the right thing to do as he never would have wanted to be in the position he was and for us to continue trying to keep him alive. It is the loving thing to do in my mind - that you love your father so much that you want him to be free from pain and from the suffering of this life. It is good that you cry a lot - we all need to get our grief out and don't be surprised if you find that your grief comes and goes. I hope that you find some peace in your dad's death knowing that he is no longer suffering. Take care of yourself!
dear michelle. hello again, my name is denise. i hope that you received my letter as i think i might have pressed the wrong button after writing and i really wrote things that were in my heart. i hope you received it. please let me know. (firstname.lastname@example.org)