Dearest Richard's Mom:
I know that they are now looking down and saying look they are talking to each other, because they know everything now! and i know Richard and Jared are there together and they are proud of us. I just know don't ask me how but it is said that we will know each other in heaven. Richard is a beauitful young man inside and out, this is not to flatter it is a truth. Tenn ok, that is a big fish! so did you guys stuff it? I have a feeling you did lol. I am getting ready to talk to our Father and i will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. I look forward to talking to you tomorrow and i pray that your sleep will be sweet.
Dearest Richard's Mom;
yah! i did it! this is a picture of my son Jared, eating that is one of his pass times, i have many more but this was the one i did the trial and it suites me fine! He 19 and he went to be with the Lord aug 4, 2009. He was getting ready for college and we were enjoying the beaitful summer day he kissed and said bye mom, i am coming home to eat the roast you cooked! I love him so very much. it has been 6mo today, don't you know.
Dearest Richard Mom
Hello once again, I see your beauitful richard and it does my heart good, He is beauitful and bright. And is also see that he has had a birthday and i want to say to him Richard Happy Birthday belated or not. And mom blessings and peace from our Lord Jesus Christ. I have not posted a picture of my Jared yet, i am not that computer savey yet but i will. So, did you guys have fish for dinner? and where do you live that he caught such a great fish? I would have been glad to be with you guys for dinner wow.
That's quite a fish he caught. I have not heard of that book, but I will look it up. I forgot another important sign: about a week and a half before the accident my verizon cell phone screen went white. Chad laughed saying I couldn't "bug" him anymore, but I was upset. The sentimental mom I am I had saved different texts from my kids for over a year. Ones I thought were special. Many special ones (happy mom's day, happy birthday ma, etc.) from Chad. I was devasted to lose them as well. No one could fix it. About six weeks later my husband and I went to a store to see if anything could be transferred to a new phone I got. When the man at the store turned it on, he said "the screen is on. nothing is wrong with this phone". Tears streamed down my eyes as I saw/heard Chad talking to me through his old texts I had saved. I will never forget it. The phone is fine now and I have printed my texts in case its ever happens again. I KNOW Chad made that phone screen work for me again. He knew how much I needed to see words. I love him so much.
The signs I have received from my son are simple. People can choose to see them as signs or not. I choose to believe. I will see my son again some day. In St. Mary's cemetary, where Chad's ashes are buried, there have been three separate occasions where I have pulled in (twice my husband was with me also), and ahead of us we saw Chad's car (1998 dark blue buick lesabre) only it wasn't Chad's actual car because his was destroyed in the accident. We never could get close to the car and when we tried it left the cemetary. Also, my maiden name is Bjorkman. Rather a rare name. At the hospital where I work I saw a sign put up in October asking for Christmas cards for a little boy who was dying. That boy's name was Noah Scott Bjorkman. I couldn't believe. I believe Chad wants me to contact that family and give them words of hope. Noah died on Chad's "due date" 11/23/09. Chad himself died on 9/4/09. The song "Remember When" was a favorite of mine by Alan Jackson. Had not heard it on the radio in years. Leaving to get away on Thanksgiving day with our family, I turned on the radio and there was "Remember When" playing. Most importantly, I was undecided as to whether to go to a Compassionate Friends meeting in October. My girlfriend and I couldn't make up our minds. We decided to go and arrived five minutes late. The hosts told us "this is not an ordinary meeting. tonight we have singer/song writer Alan Pedersen performing who lost his 18 year old daughter in a single car rollover accident". Just like Chad's accident. Her passenger survived as well. I bought Alan's three CDs that night and sponsored Chad on Alan's angel tour. That music has totally saved my life as I listen to it each day with hope knowing that the person who sings those songs shares my loss. Go to angelsacrosstheusa.com. I know Chad brought me there that night. Also, I had lost a bracelet Chad gave me a year or so ago. Just the other week I reached for something under my car seat and there it was. I will never take it off. There are other signs I could list as well. I have my heart open to listen for word from my son because DEATH WILL NOT HAVE THE FINAL WORD. I love him too much. God Bless, Lisa
That was nice of you to respond and I bleieve in the same things yo do.
My Aunt is really toxic. And my mom knew it that's why she didn't want anything to do with her and belive me my mom was sweet to everyone but her sister is a piece of work and I have never had one positive encounter with her.
I have to keep a sense of humor. You're right, since my Aunt was so money hungry maybe I'll buy a 2nd hand purse at Good Will and send it to her.
i richards speacial mom, some how were going to make it, thats what our boys would want,they dont want us too be so crazy all the time,even though i feel like i am sometimes. we have to be strong and we can cry if we want too,not that we can stop it when it comes it comes and that might get easier i dont no. all i know is im trying so hard it hurts so bad and i know it does for you, but what can we do,is just wait to jesus calls us home. just rember im here for you we have to stick together other people dont understand unless they are going through it,and i wouldnt wish it on anyone. take care and be as strong as we can be, and know i no how hard it is. take care. justins mom pam
The pain never goes away...however..today I have found the answer to why.
Why this keeps happening in our world today.
Please read my story and pass it along. This is Breaking News
LET ME KNOW IF YOUR STORY IS SIMILAR. OUTRAGED
DEAR RICHARDS MOM I GUESS SOME WAY WERE ALL GOING TO HAVE GET THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS,OH HOW SAD BUT I SEEN A ORNAMENT THAT SAID WELL I KNOW YALL WILL MISS ME BUT I'M SPENDING CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS THIS YEAR,THHT IS TRUE BUT OH HOW WE WANT THEM WITH US THIS YEAR,THE LAUGHTER WANT BE HERE THE SMILE THE HUGS THE JOKES OH HOW WE MISS THEM,IT WILL ALWAYS BE,JUST THE MEMORIES. LOVE AND TAKE CARE JUSTINS MOM FOREVER
I want you to know that I really feel for you. My Son was just killed and in My opinion his own Dad and his Dads Girlfriend had a hand in it. Read My post dated 9-15-09. Please try and hang in there. I know it seems impossible because I am having an Extremly hard time. Cindy
Scott and his girlfriend was together for 4 years and I'd say they were happy together. He managed all the bills and helped with the housework, kept the yard looking nice. During the funeral his girlfriend and I was there for each other, I thought we would remain seeing each other but I went to a few physics and she didn't like that. And she dosen't like being told what to do and I thought I was trying to help her but anyway she has moved on so that's all of that. I have two other sons that I'm close to but nobody can take the place of Scott. He was a special person, I talked to him all the time when I'm alone. My youngest son had a son and they name him Alexander Scott which I was very pleased with. So I have two grandsons 10 years old and Alex is 5 months, I also have a granddaughter Candence but I never get to her, the mother is one of those people you can't understand. Today has been a okay day for me, I'm not drinking today Oh maybe a glass of wine or two. Scott is buried in Louisville Menorial Gardens. His grave is by a tree and I have hung wind chines in the tree, on his birthdays we hang birthday decorations on the tree and take ballons and I also take him a birthday card. It's so hard I know but what do you do just wait your turn I guess.
I WAS ALSO ACUSED OF MY SON JUSTIN BEING MY FAVORITE, AND HE ALWAYS SAID IT TO HE JUST NEEDED ME MORE. JUST REMEMER WE WERE THERE FOR THEM. AND HOW OUR HEARTS HURT ITE NOT SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN THIS WAy. EVERY WERE YOU GO THERE IS A MEMORIE. I JUST MISS THAT LAUGH THAT SMILE AND I LOVE YOU MORE MOM,AND I WOULD SAY IT BACK WE JUST HAD A SPEACIAL BOND. I MISS HIM SO I HOPE ONE DAY I CAN MOVE FORWARD MORE HE PASSED OCTOBER 3rd 08 A DAY YOU NEVER FORGET JUST LIKE THE DAY THEY WERE BORN. WE HAVE SOME GREAT MEMORIES WE HAVE TO HANG ON TO. SOMEONE SENT THIS TO ME WHEN MY SON PASSED HE WAS 30 YEARS OLD AND I HAD HIM THAT LONG BUT NOT LONG ENOUGH. HERE IS WHAT SOMEONE SENT ME I HOPE IT HELPS YOU A LITTLE. WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME AND I'M NOT THERE TO SEE IF THE SUN SHOULD RISEAND FIND YOUR EYES ALL FILLED WITH TEARS FOR ME. I WISH SO MUCH YOU WOULDN'T CRY THE WAY YOU WILL TODAY WHILE THINKING OF THE MANY THINGS WE DIDN'T GET TO SAY; I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU'AND EACH TIME YOU THINK OF ME I KNOW YOU'LL ME TOO; BUT WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME PLEASE TRY TO UNDERSTAND, AN ANGEL CAME AND CALLED MY NAME AND TOOK ME BY THE HAND; SO WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME DON'T THINK WE'RE FAR APART FOR EVERY TIME YOU THINK OF ME I'M RIGHT HERE IN YOUR HEART. I HOPE THIS HELPS A LITTLE. I WENT AND GOT ME A CHARM FROM JAMES AVERY THAT SAYS YOU ALWYS IN MY HEART I PUT ON A CHAIN AND I JUST RUB IT WHEN I'M HAVING A BAD DAY. TRY AND BE STRONG AS HARD AS IT IS. THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY PAM JUSTINS MOM
Your story sounds so much like mine. My son was 37 when he die, we were close also. He was always there for me and we hugged and kiss good by and hello. Scott was or is my favorite son, I have two other sons 35 abd 27. But Scott was always there for me all I had to do was ask and he was there. And the same for him but never like to ask for anything because his brother was always the needy one so there for Scott never wanted to bother me. Scott didn't leave any children behind but he loved kids but never wanted any, he'd alway say I'm doing lucky to take care of myself. I too would kid Scott about his gray in his beard, he shaved his head because he was bald. I had Scott when I was 17 so we kinda grew up together. I know what you are going thru and it's not easy. We will cry until the day we die and then we will be with our sons, this will be a happy day. But we have to wait our turn. Scott has left his girlfriend his insurance and 401K which was alot of money. I let her have his truck and she still lives in the house they bought together. After nine months she met somebody else she said we must go on, get pass it. She never calls me. Sometimes I'll ride by his house just to look at it. He took such great care of his yard and his home. I know what you are feeling and words just don't help I know, nothing will. There is nothing I can say except I know what you are feeling and how sad you can be. And the crying spells we have, that lonely feeling that don't go away. Just live each day the best you can like I do.
LAST SAT.NIGHT I WONDERED IF YOU KNEW HOW MUCH YOU ARE LOVED.AND THE NEXT MORNING I GOT MY ANSWER I WAS HANDED A 20.00 DOLLAR BILL AT THE TOP WAS YOUR NAME AND ON BOTH SIDES WAS HEARTS.I MISS YOU EVERY DAY YOU MADE THIS WORLD BETTER FOR ME.I KNOW YOU ARE OK.KNOW I WAIT FOR THE DAY I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN.
Dear Lynn thank you so very much for your kind words on my page. I would like to add you as a friend yet I do not know how. If you do, would you please add me? I dan so relate to wanting to talk then being blown off. Gosh I miss my child. Again, ty for your kind words.
I was so sad to hear about Richard today. Wow. When you said you didn't know how to say this I just thought you were gonna tell me something simple ,Not this. I am praying for you , and your family,It's not easy to loose a child,I lost a grandchild and a husband,but not this. I know you have strenghth ,and just hang n there girl. It's hard ,but atleast he is not suffering no more with head aches, etc. I pray he is in heaven. I miss you girl alot. I will pass this on to our friends that I am friends with thru myspace. Love ya girl. I know it will never be the same,and I am so sorry. Love sandy .
Hi Lyn I am always on line it gets me by!! I look forward to keeping in touch with you..I am sorry about your son...nothing will ever fill our emptiness and nothing will ever be the same again .. please try and sleep ..unfortunately in this cruel world day after day we wake up and have to try and face the world ..so in your heart know that you are not alone..with this site you are never alone ...god bless
Thank you for your words - I find solace being on this site - it lets me air out my feelings no matter what and it helps me get through the days knowing that I am not suffering as much as some of the others that I have befriended on this site..it might sound cold but like some say ... maybe most of my grieving was done over the years while nursing my sick husband and yes I guess it is true every trip to the hospital always was taken as the last however, his last trip wasnt like that and so as sick as he was there was still no doubt he was coming home so it was one big shock when he passed...it hurts I have our 11th weeding anniversary next saturday and that will be hard just like it was for our birthdays but I have to carry on...