I am so sorry you lost your son. My son was also my best friend and the love of my life. I lost Chad on September 4, 2009.
My husband, my kids, and myself are lost without him. We get through each day but they are all the same. We just want our son and brother back. We know that can't be, but that doesn't change how we hope it could be changed.
I am sure your son knows how much his mom loved him. I know Chad knows how much he is loved by his family and by no one more than his mom.
God bless you. This is a nightmare nobody should have to live. Lisa (Chad's mom)