Hey Jonell, I dont think you write too much at all. We live in Miami and I was born in Chicago from Cuban parents fleeing the revolution. I was raised in religion confirmation, catacism, alter boy. I dont think it makes much of difference at all because we basically are the same. We are not fanatical or regular church goers either just always believed in a higher power and passed along to our kids that there was a God they all got baptised together because I was in the Military for a long time and traveled abroad to several countries. When Jasmin stepped away it all went out the window anyway and now we question our religions, God and just about everything. As for the Looney Bin, not to worry cause I think I invented it but, have not yet been there. I really appreciate your openess and honesty whatever it may be. A few days after Jasmin passed we were devastated and thru family were connected to a real Looney Tunes, I mean a Psychologist specializing in death. He was a student of Elisabeth Kubler Ross and she was also a Psych. dedicated only to Death. She wrote some books he recomended and I had an opportunity to read one or two, "When Bad Things Happen to Good People" , "Death, The Final Stage of Growth" , On Death and Dying. *I found your writing to Ivonne similar to some of her material. There were 2 Doctors students of hers that actually volunteered and had a controlled near death experiences and when they were brought back they wanted to stay there. Hard to tell who the Looneys are so I never judge and never forget I may one of them. Where are you from ? I am still getting familiar with this site but, so far find it very good and gives me more ability to vent specifically on my feelings about Jasmin's passing. And also about Phillips and yourself. I like it that you care and have shared with us like this. God Bless You and Phillip. Robert.
Jonnell, please not to worry about spelling. I am very sorry for your loss as well. I first read what you wrote to Ivonne along with some other comments and thought to myself this is great that people are talking to each other, venting and telling about there pain. I have to tell you up front that because of your comments is why I came onboard today and I appreciate very much your words. I am wondering among many things you wrote us about if are reading Elisabeth Kubler-Ross ? I will be updating and posting Pic's later on and hope to write to you plenty more. I do not have words to really express to you how very sorry I am for your loss, I can tell your Phillip was an excellent person and very close to his Mom. Thanks, Robert.
thank you jonnell i only wish i had your faith, i feel like i have lost it all , since i have no faith in god at all, i am in a total confusion of whats real and what not. i lite a candle, i pray,i talk to her just in case, but i truely cant say i believe.
I am so sorry about your wonderful son Philip. I read about him and saw his sweet face. I can tell that he was truly a special person. I lost my Philip 13 months ago. He was a very precious person too. I am very angry about the loss of my son. . .I do not blame God though I give God no credit for comfort or peace or anything like that. I think God is love and it is shown through people like you. . .people who understand my terrible sadness and yet, have the grace to care about someone else.
I read your Philip's book and looked at the beautiful pictures. I know that grief comes in horrible waves and sadness like a fist in one's throat.
I am glad that you are going on a trip. I live in Greensboro NC which is not close to Duck. I have been there and it is a quaint wonderful place.
I am not going to ask how you are doing. . .because I know. I also know that you are so lucky that Philip is your son, not in the past but always. He was just a doll.
Always Proud Mom of Philip Dillon Lean
JONNELL ; YOU SAID IT SO WELL-ACTUALLY RELIGION CUD BE BELIEVING IN ANYTHING THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO W/ GOD. IT'S OUR SPIRITUAL FAITH THAT GOD IS REAL & HE HAS PROMISED THAT WE WILL SEE OUR DECEASED LOVED ONES AGAIN THAT WE MUST TRUST & BELIEVE IN ! HOW WOULD WE EVER HAVE BEEN BLESSED TO HAVE GOT TO KNOW OUR LOVED ONES AT ALL IF GOD WAS NOT REAL-ANYTHING AS BEAUTIFUL & WONDERFUL AS OUR BABIES COULD NOT HAVE EVER EXISTED WITHOUT A GREAT & WONDERFUL GOD TO CREATE THEM - A NEWBORN BABY IS A GREAT MIRACLOUS BUNDLE OF BEAUTY LOVE & JOY !!! IF WE DID NOT BELIEVE GOD IS REAL WHAT WUD WE HAVE IN LIFE- NOTHING ! I'M NOT SURE IF I AM EVEN MAKING SENSE BUT ONE THING I DO KNOW - GOD IS REAL TO ME & I TRUST IN HIM FOR EVERYTHING . I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY ALL THESE SAD THINGS HAPPEN TO US BUT I KNOW THAT GOD IS HELPING ME THRU IT OR I WOULD BE A HOPELESS MESS !I'M PROUD & THANKFUL GOD IS THERE FOR ME TO GO TO ANYTIME & ANY PLACE !I BELIEVE HE HAS MY RYAN RITE THERE IN HEAVEN W/HIM . THE NITE RYAN WAS DYING I TOLD GOD THAT IF RYAN WAS NEVER GOING TO BE RITE IN HIS MIND- FROM A GUNSHOT WOUND IN HIS HEAD- THAT I WANTED HIM TO TAKE RYAN ON TO BE WITH HIM - FOR I DID NOT WANT RYAN TO HAVE TO LIVE AS A VEGETABLE WITH NO QUALITY OF LIFE & PLEASE DON'T LET HIM SUFFER - WE RUSHED TO THE HOSPITAL ARRIVING ABT SAME TIME THE AMBULANCE GOT THERE W/ RYAN & AS I WALKED INTO THE EMERGENCY ROOM THEY WERE CALLING CODE BLUE & I CRIED OUT -THATS HIM -I KNO IT'S HIM DYING & I WAS BEGGING TO GO TO HIM & THEY WUD NOT LET ME - I SAID TO THE LADY AT THE DESK THAT I HAVE GOT TO TALK TO HIM - BUT INSTEAD THEY TOOK US TO A ROOM JUST FOR RYANS FAMILY- RYAN WAS TOO FAR GONE TO SAVE * HE WAS GONE WHEN THEY GOT THERE WITH HIM - I SAID ALL THIS TO SAY - GOD HEARD MY PLEA FOR HIM TO TAKE RYAN TO BE W/HIM IF RYAN CUD NOT BE OK IN HIS MIND & TO NOT LET RYAN SUFFER. GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER FOR MY SON I BELIEVE IMMEADIATELY & TOOK HIM TO PARADICE TO BE WITH THE LORD. I MISS HIM SOOO BAD BUT I KNO HE IS AT PEACE & HAPPY- & I KNOW SOMEDAY I WILL SEE MY RYAN AGAIN FOR I'M GOING TO HEAVEN TOO - THERE'S NO DOUBT IN MY MIND !!GOD GIVES US ALL A CHOICE TO BELIEVE IN HIM OR TO NOT BELIEVE IN HIM. I AM GLAD TO RECCOMEND HIM TO EVERYONE FOR HE SURE LIGHTENS MY HEAVY LOAD & I LOVE HIM & SERVE HIM GLADLY !! GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU !!! YOUR FRIEND DEL ROGERS ~ LOTS OF HUGS TOO !~
Dear Miss Jonnell,
I am so sorry for your lost of your son, the bible speaks of a resurrection which gives us hope for our dead love ones.
The Bible writer Paul offered hope of relief from that “last enemy,” death. He wrote: “Death is to be brought to nothing.” “The last enemy to be abolished is death.” which is found in the book of 1 Corinthians 15:26. Paul was so sure of this because he had been taught by one who had been raised from the dead, Jesus Christ. Read Acts 9:3-19 That is also why Paul could write: “Since death is through a man which was Adam, so resurrection of the dead is also through a man which would be Jesus Christ. For just as in Adam all are dying, so also in the Christ all will be made alive.” Read 1 Corinthians 15:21, 22. Isnt this good news...Please take care of yourself my prayers are with you while we wait patiently on God's promise of the resurrection hope...If you need to talk you can email me at any time.
I saw your post and could not believe it. My son, my precious son was Philip Dillon Lean. He was the love of my life, young, sweet, fun, full of good thoughts for the world. I looked through all the names for you. I love the name Philip. My Philip was named after one of my favorite students. . .it was always such a story that they were born on the same day, just 10 years apart.
I am so sorry for your lost. I cannot put it into words. I know your son was precious. . .I miss mine so much. Everywhere I go in my hometown, I have memories. I hope you will go to legacy and look at my son's beautiful face.
If there is anything, I can do. . .let me know.
My email is firstname.lastname@example.org
I live in greensboro. NC
Always Proud Mom of Philip Dillon Lean
Dear Miss Jonnell, i'am very sorry to read of the loss of your son Philip. Don't feel crazy! You have the right method of thinking, many many others think the same way you do, that they will see their loved ones again, they are simply gone on holiday. I view it same myself. This is because God didnt intend for humans to die, because it is unatural, we grief so terribly when it happens! The bible makes it clear that God's purpose was for humans to live forever. The only thing that changed that was the sin of Adam and Eve. ( thanks to them) Romans 6:23- " the wages sin pays is death." But death isnt the end! Remember Jehovah sacrificed his " only begotten son" so that " those who exercised faith in him would gain everlasting life." Well exercise in faith in Jesus' words in John 5:28,29 here he himself speaks of the ressurrection hope. "do not marvel at this because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out." There is proof that Jesus gave 1,900 years ago that the ressurrection is possible. In Luke 8:40 he awoke a 12 year old girl sleeping in death. He ressurrected Lazarus in John 11:11-44. So there is biblical proof of what is too take place here on Earth under the kingdom of God. No more pain no more death- Revelation 21:3,4.
You are in my prayers Miss Jonnell.
Do keep believing you will see your son again because you and your daughter will :)
Philip Birthday is coming up, January 18 he would have been 14. as i was just writing to another member i will say this, i beleive i will see philip again, it is taking longer than i would like but i pretend he is away at college and traveling and having the time of his life and i just have to wait to see him. in all reality it is the truth, he is just away, not gone. it may not be the right way to deal with things but its what gets me by for my 4 year old daughter. happy birthday philip! and thank you everyone for sharing your stories
HI JONNELL, MY NAME IS JANIE, I LIVE IN WISCONSIN. I LOST MY SON JAN. 9 2008. AND THE PAIN IS STILL WITH ME. I DO HAVE TO SAY THAT
ASKING THE LORD TO HELP HAS HELPED ME. FINALLY
THIS PAST SEPT. I STARTED FEELING SOMEWHAT NORMAL AGAIN. YOU MY DEAR, HAVE JUST STARTED YOUR JOURNEY. IT'S A ROUGH RIDE AND NO YOU AREN'T GOING CRAZY, EVEN THOUGH YOU WILL FEEL LIKE IT. I FELT THAT WAY, NOTHING MADE SENSE TO ME, I FORGOT THINGS ALL THE TIME, I JUST DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING. I HAVE AN OLDER SON, HE'S MARRIED, AND HAS 3 CHILDREN. A NICE HAPPY FAMILY. BUT MY FAMILY IS NOT COMPLETE ANYMORE, AND NEVER WILL BE. NO ONE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER UNLESS THEY HAVE GONE THROUGH THIS HEARTBREAKING LOSS.
PLEASE, KEEP IN TOUCH SO WE KNOW YOU ARE OK.
IF YOU LIKE CONTACT ME AT WHELANHOTTIE@AOL.COM
PLEASE IN SUBJECT WRITE LEGACY, SO I KNOW ITS'
NOT JUNK MAIL. KEEP IN TOUCH,
My son Philip died on September 5, 2009 from a car accident. i cant even beleive its been 5 weeks, it seems like today. The pain is so great i dont know how to deal with it. Most of the time i block it out cause i cant cope otherwise. he was the perfect kid, very kind and caring, did good in school, had many friends and left behind a 3 year old sister who loved him to pieces. i am not sure what what to do next