I am so sorry about your daughter, to watch my child die and couldn't do anything about it how awfu that must have felt. I don't know how you feel about others surviving cancer but i can relate when i hear about others surviving these rollover cars cars smashed into and my 17 year old baby boy died on impact because of the mazda pickup buckled under his seat and smashed him into the steerling wheel, he had his seat belt on and air bair went off, I just don't undertand any of this tomorrow my baby would have turned 18 i am haing him a memorial and in May he would have graduated the school is giving him a special graduation, I see people who kill or steal and they live another day and then our children get killed or die or cancer who really wanted to make something of themselves, as they say only the good die young I really hate the expression but it seems to be true.
I have been reading this site for a year now and have finally decided to share my own story. You all sound like very compassionate people and I wish we could have met under better circumstances but we all have a common "link" in our lives and hopefully we can help each other by "just being here" for each other.
My beautiful daughter, Darline, lost her 16 month battle with cancer June 17, 2009, a little over a year and a half ago. She received her Masters Degree in Utah and went to Georgia for her internship where she met her wonderful husband. They lived in Georgia for a short time, then returned to Calif. They moved in with us to save money for a house. They both got great jobs and were ready to buy their own first home. Feb. 26 she was diagnosed with Cancer, that was 4 days before her 30th birthday (Mar. 1). Our lives were followed with 16 months of chemo, radiation, multiple surgeries and terrible pain for my precious daughter.
I miss her sooo much. No parent should watch their child be born and also watch them die. It is just too much!!! She kept telling me, "I am so sorry mom". I know she knew what this was going to do to our family.
I have learned from reading all the comments on this site that I am NOT alone with the thoughts I have. I just want the pain to lessen and I really thought it would by now.