I'm sorry for the loss that has brought you here to this group. I joined in 2015 and have found this to be a safe and supportive place as I struggled with my grief. If you wish to share anything with the group I assure you that there will be no judgements or lectures - only willing listeners who will offer their own stories and experiences along with compassionate support. If you are unsure how to post just ask for help and someone here will guide you through the steps.
I send my prayers for you to find some peace today and every day as you navigate this difficult path upon which you find yourself.