Larry...I am so sorry for your loss. The loss of a soul mate is a difficult one to bear. I lost my soul mate Ken on 1/13/16 after 30 years together. Like you, I had no time to say goodbye and it still kills me to this day. I'll never get over that.
It may help you to join our Bereaved Spouses group. I couldn't have gotten this far without these angels helping me along. To converse with people who truly understand what you're going through has been a lifesaver for me. You can also just read the comments on our wall if you're not ready to post. It may help you feel a tiny bit less alone