Hi Randy please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your Husband Paul. I understand it does feel like yesterday. You asked what brings us here. My only child my son Joe was taken when a drunk driver hit him. The dd is freely walking around as there was never a case brought. My husband and i were not notified until it was over. And I never saw the letter that was sitting in between my hubby's books and CD's during a Christmas Holiday. He must have opened it and not shown me because I always put a letter back in the original letter. Plus I know I would have told him. It will be 8 years and I am very busy but just realized yesterday and today when someone I know told me I am depressed. She said if your overwhelmed your depressed. Plus I don't sleep well. But I've taken a couple of steps to help myself as I've been sick during this cold winter her in New Jersey. It's snowing again.
I'm sorry that you haven't been able to find anyone to be your partner. It's good to have a partner. It may depend on your age and how long you and Paul were together. One time I told this woman that she could marry anyone she chooses but no one pleases her. She liked that and thought it was funny. But it is rather true. As she told me her husband was the best. Your Paul was probably the best and no one can measure up to him for you Randy. Did you get to join a group yet. I belong to Loss of a Child but not sure if I'm still on loss of parents, and loss of a sibling. I don't frequent those groups on the one for the child. It's not active as it once was. Take good of yourself and never settle for second best. You need to feel that whoever you hook up with is the best at this time in your life.