thank you Connie for your input. I really want to keep her eye glasses because they were hers. Her shirt and pants are still hanging on the vacuum cleaner handle where she put them to take a nap.I sniffed out all of her smell from her shirt. I have not thrown out anything of hers nor do I plan too. Hug to you. Hugs are good.
Connie, yes we are a rare breed being married for such a long time. Of course we wanted more. My aunt always said that too, that God won't give you anymore than you can handle.I too am limited physically due to numerous back surgeries. I do what I can , when I can. Yeah, we can lend an ear from time to time. Hug to you. Hugs are good.
I would like to say that I debated to coming to this site and posting and reading the experiences of others. Yes, its depressing. But HEY,we are sad and depressed. We can help with sharing our stories and maybe in a small way we can help others with something we do or dont do in our grieving process. Nothing will ever be the same again. We move on only in our own way and time. It is ONLY we who can maybe get it figured out. I cant move on,I'll tell ya that.I was a one woman guy for over 44 years and have no friends or anyone to relate too. But, we can all lend an ear and maybe,somehow,a little bit of an insight would help somebody.My grand daughter is pregnant with my great grandson and will probably will have to terminate its life before birth due to a MAJOR problem. Things are not so good in my life either. Hugs to all. Hugs are good.
Connie, thank you for your kind message. Yes I have family near me but have little support from all except one. They have their families,jobs,kids,problems and their own history to make.You cannot share with them the way you could with your spouse. Its not the same at all. You always have "reality". Alone when you get home and when you go anywhere. We can share on this site and we dont always know the answers and maybe never will.The lonliness and sadness is always prevailing. Sorry for your loss and everyones losses and grief. Hugs to all. Hugs are good.
No Connie, I know how people feel on this site and I'm sorry you all have to feel that way. I too still feel like that. I just want to get away and try somethig else that may work for me. I'm tired of waking up every day and feeling down in the dumps. For me, I don't think writing about it every day is helping me any. I'm not at any perticular stage that says move on, and maybe that's my problem. Maybe just going out for breakfast, or lunch, or something will help me some. I don't like sitting at home all the time. I feel that I've get to do something, and taking a step in another direction is all I can think of. I talk with my Loni every day, and kiss her picture. I miss her and know that she is not coming back. Meeting someone else is not out of the question, for company. After all, If Loni didn't meet me, she would have been alone, and died alone. And the kitties would have been put to sleep. I think what I'm trying to say is, that I love life too much to let things stay the same.
Loni will always be with me, and I know for a fact that Loni would want more for me. I didn't mean to offend anyone here, I was talking about me only and what I must do. I still check in on everyone here and wish you all well. This is not easy, and I must adapte to my life as it is, and how it will be. I may not get anywhere, but I've got to keep trying untill I do.
Every day the size of this group increases. I don't remember exactly how many people were on the site when I joined a few months ago. It breaks my heart that every day more and more people are suffering as we are without the person that they love most in the world. I am happy that people are finding this site because I am sure that they will benefit from it. These are some of the nicest, most considerate people. It is just so sad that more people are hurting as we all are.
It's really nice of you to be thinking of me. I have been remembering you in my prayers and I have been doing the usual routine things we all are doing and had errands to do. I haven't been able to go on grief sites lately because I received really bad news and have been on the phone most of the day with my family members because I just found out my eldest brother has cancer and the doctor said he has 9 months to live. He lives in another state but I was still shocked. I have 3 brothers and 3 sisters and there's heavy issues between them. I get along with all of them but I am kind of upset that I wish they would put the past behind them because you would think he knows now that life is too short. You know? Well, anyway, sorry to burden you with my troubles and I feel really bad that you and all of us have to go through our loss on top of everything else. It seems overwhelming at times. I wish we could go back in time. I really miss Danny so much so I really do know how you feel and I am praying for you. My heart goes out to you and here you are wondering about me. So much pain. How do we do it. Well, I'll keep in touch. Thank you again.
Hi Connie I am really looking forward to N C and I'm not sure when I'll be able to get up north ,but it would be nice to meet. I have a mini vac next month to wildwood at the shore and a girlfriend and me are doing a mini one sometime in aug. not sure when and we don't even know where we want to go her son is going to space in alamba for a week, she keeps talking about just going to New York and staying in chine town and eating chinese as we are big on that type of food lol so we'll see. thanks. Virginia
connie, You are so right about people who live together and can't stand each other. HOW is that fair? I actually know a woman who lost her husband but refused to follow out his wishes because she didn't want to spend the xtra money. Her kids were devastated. He had a decent policy but she said that he put her through hell on earth and now hes'
gonna pay. She refused to lay him out and instead of bury him she had him cremated and sold the grave he bought and scattered his ashes!!!!! I just know this person but am not friends...couldn't be no matter what they went through. You know what they say about paybacks! She followed it through. I would not be able to sleep. Some people are just evil.
lol I'm hoping to come up that way we want to go to hoboken nj to see the cake boss lol we will be going to north carolina, my nephew his wife and their 15 month old I want to go back, me and my husband took my nephew when he was 16 now 24 and wants his wife to see the gorgous mnts. and waterfalls. we go to grandfathers mnt. and chimney rock and the ashville are not so much the town but the mnts. there, we are leaving on the 20th of this month and returning around the 27th I'm truelly looking forward to it. Virginia
connie: i live in jersey city we usually go to the showboat but when george was alive we use to go to ceasers george was not a gambler so he would walk around and take picturers of things we never brought big money with us and never went to the atm machines i usually received free rooms that is the only time we would go. sometimes when george was working on saturday i would hop on the bus myself.i work hard for my money but i sometimes need to get away expecially if the bills are paid and we have a little extra money take care
Hi connie, yes born and raised lol I do not like to gamble, we probally have only been there to gamble maybe 5 times if that.I always told my husband I worked to hard for my money and wasn't putting it in machines. When we did go he would give me $ 100.00 I would spend 20 and keep the rest. His family lives in las vegas and we have been going there every year I've known him.He liked to gamble so we would go, then he found out I was holding the money.We only took so much so he would spend his and come get what I was holding lol, I played a little but would just sit and people watch.The last 4 or so yrs. I told him I love your mother and don't wish her bad but when she passes I'm never going back there. His mom is 78 turning 79 in oct. she came back for his funeral and stayed a week with me then cried saying she would never see me again, so I went last oct. for her b-day boy I truely didn't think I was going to be able to do it alone, but I did for him I know he would want me to so I'm going this oct. also, guess the trick is on me lol I truely do love her to death so I will go as long as she lives. she loves to gamble maybe a little to much so we go. ok will talk to you later Virginia
connie: please do not feel you are dumping on me you see we are all going thru the same thing some could handle it more than others i do not mean they can forget faster i am saying we all handle sadness different than others. i will be going to my carlogist (spelling) friday i am going to ask him to give me medication so that i can get my appetie back to where it was. when i first got sick i could not eat or want to eat he gave me pills to get my appite back they sure worked he had to take me off them because i was eating everything and anything i need to do this because i do not need to lose any weight
connie: i am glad that i am not the only one doing this not eating my sister who lives downstairs from me went up to my apt. for something she called me and asked me why my freezer fridge and pantry are empty i told her about not wanting to cook she said i have to cook for myself i told her i do not want to so therefore mind your own business and do not worry about what i do. when i feel like eating something i would
connie: that is a good thing to know about the flag. how long does it stay up? will they tell you the fee when you go into the website: i am just wondering maybe i would do that for george this way the kids may get the flag
Hi Connie. Thank you for your comment to me. I know your Phil was as special to you as my Phill was to me. As I sit here now, I see it is almost to the time he left on that Sat,. Sept. 5, 2009. There is no greater pain, is there. I miss him so much. We we a pair, buddies, best friends. I don't know yet what to do with myself. I just take each day at a time. I still don't sleep well and am up a lot of night till the birds sing in the am. Life is so lonely without him. He always made everything okay in my life. The kids and gkids are great, but I know they have lives of thier own. God bless you and keep in touch. Hugs, Connie