After thinking about what you said, I suppose you're right. We all have a right to be here or not. It's so good to have you and the others for help and support. Thank you for being there for me. May we all find peace.
I noticed your comment and wanted to let you know I have gone to my PCP and I have been reading posts. That is really nice of you to ask for me and I know each and every one of us are going through so much. I have a prescription yet to be filled for panic attacks and my PCP gave me a list of therapists I'm still working on that. It's something to do I guess. I still feel really bad that Chris B. and Lois haven't been online so I was kind of hoping that if I just read and lay low they will come back. Anyway, you are so thoughtful and kind to ask for me. Take care.
Yesterday, May 17th, was my husband's "10th" birthday. He received a heart transplant on 5/17/2000. Without the transplant he would not have surived another week but thanks to the very kind donor family, we had 9 1/2 years. In the end, the heart held up when all other organs were just shutting down. His cause of death was "sepsis". The doctors believed that he contacted an infection from where they inserted the catheter to do dialysis. His heart was still good. I dreaded this day like I have dreaded so many other days. I don't know how I am going to get through all the other dreaded days but I must try my best. Thank God for 3 beautiful daughters, 2 fantastic sons-in-law and 5 of the most beautiful grandchildren anyone could ask for. I go to the cemetary to be near him every day and sometimes more than once a day. It gives me some sort of peace knowing that I can be by his body if even for a short time. I wish everyone on this site the best and I am confident that we will all get by in our own way. No one should be judged for what they say when they are venting. We all need to be here for each other because prople who have not experienced this kind of loss just DO NOT understand the lonliness and devastation we feel. God Bless one and all.
connie; i had called the 911 at 11:57 the night my husband passed. i knew he passed that time because i heard him take his last breath. i would never want to go thru that again. my youngest son went to the hospital with the ambulance when i got there he was walking out i knew he was pronounced dead. when i went into the emergency room to see him he had the tube still in his mouth. i went to the hospital a few days later because of the time on the death cert.they said he arrived at the hospital at 12.43 and the doctor pronounced him dead at 12:36 so you see i never had the time at the hospital to tell him but i know he knew because i kissed him on the lips a few times and i told him he can go
I lost my husband 4 months ago. I am having great difficulty dealing with my loss. My husband and I were married 46 years in October. He passed in November. We were quite young when we married. I was just 18. We grew up together and lived our lives together truly as one. We have three beautiful daughters and five gorgeous grandchildren. I love my children and grandchildren but they cannot make up for the loss of my husband. We were husband and wife, sweethearts, lovers, but most of all 'best friends.' My heart aches and I am not sure that I want to continue living without him. I wait for the day that I can hold his hand again. This is what I long for.