Bill: what you are going through believe it or not is part of the healing process, For me my husband death I went through the same thing, like a film that kept rolling, all I can say is talk it out, if family and friends dont understand, we on this site do! It will get better with time, and I know people always say that but it is true. Hang in there Bill, you are loved, and in my prayers

Bill, I just wanted to stop in and see how you are doing. I hope you have found some peace. Take care of yourself Yvonne

It will be one month tomorrow since he left. My family planned a barbeque get together in honor of him and plus they probably figured it's Valentines and they didn't want me to be alone. I'm really thankful for my family and very few real friends. And yes, I think I'm going to cry again tomorrow but it's to be expected. We live in Las Vegas and before he left, we were waiting for snows in the mountains. All sides of our house, you can see the mountains from far away. On his funeral, it's when the rain started. It hardky rains here. A day after, snows in the mountain. Just like you, I was telling him "look at those hon".

Bill, Please get some help. Call 911 if you don't have anyone else to call. Please don't let this take over your mind. You really need to sit with someone and talk about everything that is going on with you. Please let me know that you have called someone.

Bill, I am sorry for your loss. You understand what all of us are going through. Where to begin a new life is the hard part. I know that I am supposed to be with someone else but I am not anywhere near that point. I feel as though my life is lost with my husband. We were so close. I need prayer and support. I know you do too. May God show you the way, Bill. Shelia

Hi Bill, I am new to this site. I lost my precious husband of 12 and 1/2 years on January 9, 2010 to lung cancer. He lived almost a year from diagnosis. It was so hard. This disease is the worst. He was so sick. I don't know how to do anything anymore. He took care of me. He was my best friend and I loved him so. What is your story? I couldn't find it on here. Shelia

Hi im alan and i know how you fell and i think i know where you are at i lost my wife of thirty years in march of 2007 a little under two years ago and i would give anything to hold her agian.I keep remebering all the times i miss"t chances to hold her while i still had her iv bettin myself up over it alot.Foregiveing my for the things i should have done for her has been the hardest part of all this.Lonelyness is at the top of the list we where so close and totly commited to each other.I thought if i started dateing it would help,boy was wrong iv found out im in no way ready i felt guilty the time like i was chaeting on her even though she told her best friend to make sure i started dateing as soon as possible some she knew she was going to be with the Lord but how should we and what dose being ready mean thing have change'd a lot in thirty years.Sorry i talk to much i well pray for you this my frist comment sense i joined this group i pray that God will be at you side evey day and every night and that you will find the peace of Christ my God adematrbless and watch over amen . i.