Corey...I see your post in the young widows group.   First, let me say how sorry I am that you and your kids have suffered this loss.  I think you would be better off joining the Bereaved Spouses group.  The last post in Young Widows was in April 2015 so I doubt you'll get much support there.  I belong to Bereaved Spouses and without the people I've met in this group, I don't know where I'd be today.  I lost my husband just about a year ago.  He was 52 years old and we were together for almost 30 years.  

Although prayer and having faith in God and faith that you will see your husband again someday is helpful, it does not take the pain away or make anything any easier.  If you're getting advice from people who have not lost a spouse, then they have NO idea what they're talking about.  This is a pain that cannot be described to or understood by anyone not walking in these shoes.  This is why the Bereaved Spouses group has help me tremendously. I'm not as young as you but I'm still fairly young to be a widow and therefore none of my friends or family have been through this so there was no one for me to talk to until I found this site.   I hope you'll find some comfort here, at least to know what you think and feel is normal no matter how crazy you may think it is.

Hugs to you,

Sara