DH,

So well said..I am in silence too

DH -- I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad my latest blog post connected with you. Ellen

Honored to be your friend.....I am sorry for the loss of your son!  You have joined a very wonderful compassionate group. 

Susan

DH my name is Barbara and I was just reading the comment wall. I came upon your message and it hit me like a ton of bricks. The reason is because I too lost my only child Joe. He left our house after Easter on his motorcycle (I learned that the battery in his car had died) (My mother was suppose to come but she was cooking chicken and was too tired to come.) A drunk driver took my precious son Joe on April 5, 2010. Then just on Nov. 19, 2012 my mother passed. I had one brother and father now I'm the only one left in my immediate blood line. It's not easy especially in the beginning. I cried and screamed my head off whenever I felt like it at any time of day or night. At first I was in a state of shock and disbelief. Sometimes, I tell myself that Joe is living and working in the great state of Texas. I have continued to do the things I've always done before as immediately as possible. Things are getting to me at times with my son and mom gone is a relatively short time. I feel drained at times but stay in bed when my body needs to in the morning. Then sometimes I have so much energy which is nervous energy. But I eat too much from the stress. However, I am involved in the community and the senior center as well as the garden club. In fact I've been so overwhelmed that I haven't written my article for this month's meeting to place in newspapers. Just tonight I received an e-mail about the flower show that my garden club in partaking in. I'm really not interested because I have been caring for so much since my son left. I'm drained at times and want to read e-mails and talk with people on this site. It's a connection that we all need. It's important to read others messages and to post our own. One never knows what will be said that can help at least one person. That goes for all of us here.

By the way your son is a doll. He has a really nice face and a handsome one at that.

Take care of yourself and I look forward to hearing from you. Bye for now.

Sending Love,

Barbara

DH - So sorry you have to be here but we all understand.  When you need anything, want anything, need to know anything about the journey you are in and we have been in just come here and ask.  Only we know your pain - Love, Hope and strength to you from me Ilona, Gavin's Grandma