Today marks the one year anniversary of my beloved Nicolas' passing. It has been a very difficult year indeed. He took his own life not realizing how it would affect those who loved him dearly. However through his death, new beginnings have abounded. I still struggle everyday with the questions of "why?" and trying to blame myself. I trust in God and with his guiding hands I have learned to become stronger, as I know that one day I will see and be with my Nicolas again. I now am at peace and can try to move forward. Don't get me wrong, I still have my bad days. I have learned to accepts things for the way they are and not to question or be mad at God. He has a plan for all of us. May God bless each and everyone of you and guide you through your time of needs and trials . Donna
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I'm Denise. I have suffered loss of a loved on due to a tragedy. It's been difficult but time. Real friends. Coping skills have helped m so much
I don't know you Donna, but Margo (bless her heart) referred me to your page. The 2 suicides in my family have become secondary to the loss of the rest of my family. Where we used to be close, communication with my mother is now limited to the weather, and my 4 surviving older brothers simply have never talked about anything deep. Everyone acts like this is a cold we must get over. Carol was my only sister, my Big sister. She was bipolar depressive and she struggled with alcoholism and drug addiction. She was sober for many years, actively involved in AA. Overall she was brilliant, fun, extremely funny, and much loved by many. But she succumbed to her demons in the end. My father,who was her ally, also struggled with addiction, he committed suicide 3 years ago. Now I have lost my father, and my sister, my confidante. I live outside Paris (France), 10,000 miles from home. My mother (79) and I have come to loggerheads over my desire we share information. Not only does she not share, but I get the impression she has made a pact wit hmy bros. not to tell me anything. I know this because mom and my brother called my best friend, told her things, and swore her to secrecy. I wanted us to draw together and support one another but now I have been completely alienated. Decisions are being made, Carol's belongings given away to strangers (mom gave Carol's ashes to her roomate 3 states away, without telling anyone). In all, I realize I have lost my whole family in one go. Where my relationship with Carol was unique and special, I am now being treated as a nosy, hysterical woman. How does one cope?
If anything really positive comes out of losing a loved to suicide it seems to be a much stronger faith in God. A common thread I recognize in the postings is the sense that we are incapable to handle such losses without God. Fortunately, we can always depend on Him to carry us when our own
strength fails us. Never did we imagine anything could be so painful. The refiners fire is hot but produces something of great beauty in the end. I see each of the people posting to your site as really beautiful souls that are surviving life's greatest challenges. It sounds like you are strong and have come through this last year with a renewed perspective we can all glean from Blessings to you, Donna and each of the wonderful souls who visit this site. Wishing you all a peaceful, meaningful Christmas. Christ died that man might live and have everlasting life. What wonderful knowledge to possess!! Glory Hallelujah! Much Love and Aloha, Margo
Hi Donna, thanks for the invite...I'de like to send you comfort throughout your days on this horrific journey we all travel...God Grant Us Peace...
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