Dearest Edi: I am so sorry for your tragic loss. I lost my only daughter, Kitty, 3 years ago January 21st. I doesn't seem like 3 years. She, too, was sick for many years, since 1999, but seemed to be finally getting better and coming to terms with her limitations. Then suddenly her heart stopped beating; she died in her sleep Jan. 21, 2007. I didn't even get to say goodbye. She was at home with her husband and already dead when I got there. I still have anxiety attacks and can't seem to get my breath. I still cry every day. I still miss her every minute. The ache is still physical as well as mental and emotional. I don't think we ever fully recover; how can we. To lose a child is turning the world upside down, totally unnatural. My heart goes out to you. I don't visit this site every day; it is just too hard but please visit my page as well and I will respond to you. We are all here together in our mutual grief. And we all share the same love and loss. Lee K.

Edi, i am not sure why you have not received messages...we all here care very much for each other, please continue to talk to us. i have not seen anything on the message board from you...i share in your sorrow, we all grieve differently, but the pain is the same HEARTWRENCHING.....it has been 6 months today that my son left this earth, and it feels like the very day....a persons life changes drastically, we feel like the walking dead, totally numb to anything or anyone around us...i hope you have a good family support to help you through, or should i say help you maintain...we will always be in pain...i can tell you this i have started talking to my son his name is Robby every day, and i know he hears me so that , and alot of crying gets me through the day...i wish i could wve a magic wand, and everything would be back to the way it was, and they were still with us, but that is just a dream....Edi, try talking to her, and she will listen to you...i hope you get this message...take care, and bless you. tammy E