Hello Harold: Learning how to use this website! Yes I live in Michigan, at my mailing address is Niles. I go home Sunday, I've been in Florida visiting my son and his family. Knowing I could move anywhere I want, I think anywhere out of the cold and snow would be great. I have a lot to deal with when I get home. Downsizing is one of them, after taxes and end of year work. I know it will be hard to walk into my "our" home again but I have to face it. It seems like the days are going so slowly and that's such a change from how fast I thought it was going. I fade in and out of my new reality. Being out of my familiar territory with it's memories has helped but life goes on.
Thank you Harold. I know that grieving is something that isn't spoken about and not understood until it happens. My husband and I used to visit in the living room each morning and he'd say, "you know, one of us will be left." Saying it and reality are two different things. I feel like my life exploded the day he died. It's coming back together,slowly. I think this website will be assuring and helpful.
Thank you Harold. The only thing that consoles me is I believe in God. I think He saved them all. God brought them Home before worse things could happen to them. As much as I miss them, I think God saved them! I know we'll be reunited!
Aww Harold iam so very sorry for your loss, My husband was diagnosed with glioblastoma tumor, it is a very aggressive brain cancer with no cure, some people have live at the most for 5 years, but Bobs grew quickly, within 2 weeks he was paralyzed, 4 weeks he was swollen his who,e body wasn't eating, they feed him threw tubes, 6 weeks his kidneys failed and he went on Dialysis, he started having seizures, 10 weeks to the day of his diagnoses I lost him, I was soo hoping we could fight this and keep him alive for the max of 5 years, but it was not to be, now iam alone and missing him more then I could have ever imagine,I can't see this deep pain and sorrow ever going away, he was my everything. Thankyou mary
Hi Harold, Thankyou for your very kind words, so very sorry for your loss, very over whelming, I was reading some of your comments, my husband was 18 yrs older then me, I had 22 years with him, 23 in sept. He was so very healthy, and this was such a shock. Love mary
Thanks so much for the warm welcome. I know it's doing to be a long hard row to hoe, but no one can do it for me. It's been two years yet it feels like yesterday. I awake each day praying it was only a dream I know it's not, just wishful thinking. He was real.
I agree. I find it impossible to believe it will ever get better. When people ask that dreaded question "how are you doing", I'll tell some of them I'm in a living hell. I've also told Ken our roles have reversed since his passing, before I had to watch him suffer and now he has to watch me suffer. I'm going to hold on to hope though that eventually, probably some day long in the future, I'll be able to see the light (either light will do)
Harold, I feel as you do with the deep, never ending grief. I'm only 2 weeks ahead of you, my husband passed on 1/13/16. I contacted my doctor last week because I needed something to help. Mornings for me are the worst. I'm so full of anxiety but still have to get up to go to work. With my husband here, I had strength to do anything. However sick he was, I could handle it, take care of him, go to work etc. I got my strength from him. Without him, I panic over everything so afraid of what the future will hold that I'll have to deal with solo. The anti-anxiety meds do help a bit. I can be calmer and focus better at work but it doesn't stop me from crying for him every day, several times a day. I pray we both find piece although I believe we're a long way from that right now.
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Hello Harold: Learning how to use this website! Yes I live in Michigan, at my mailing address is Niles. I go home Sunday, I've been in Florida visiting my son and his family. Knowing I could move anywhere I want, I think anywhere out of the cold and snow would be great. I have a lot to deal with when I get home. Downsizing is one of them, after taxes and end of year work. I know it will be hard to walk into my "our" home again but I have to face it. It seems like the days are going so slowly and that's such a change from how fast I thought it was going. I fade in and out of my new reality. Being out of my familiar territory with it's memories has helped but life goes on.
Thank you Harold. I know that grieving is something that isn't spoken about and not understood until it happens. My husband and I used to visit in the living room each morning and he'd say, "you know, one of us will be left." Saying it and reality are two different things. I feel like my life exploded the day he died. It's coming back together,slowly. I think this website will be assuring and helpful.
Thank you Harold. The only thing that consoles me is I believe in God. I think He saved them all. God brought them Home before worse things could happen to them. As much as I miss them, I think God saved them! I know we'll be reunited!
Harold, Thank You for your response and welcome to this site. I am
also a flower garden lover, but alas the deer also love my flowers, so far this month they have eaten all hostas, lilys and numerous others.
I hope you are having a good day today. Happy Friday.
Thanks so much for the warm welcome. I know it's doing to be a long hard row to hoe, but no one can do it for me. It's been two years yet it feels like yesterday. I awake each day praying it was only a dream I know it's not, just wishful thinking. He was real.
I agree. I find it impossible to believe it will ever get better. When people ask that dreaded question "how are you doing", I'll tell some of them I'm in a living hell. I've also told Ken our roles have reversed since his passing, before I had to watch him suffer and now he has to watch me suffer. I'm going to hold on to hope though that eventually, probably some day long in the future, I'll be able to see the light (either light will do)
Harold, I feel as you do with the deep, never ending grief. I'm only 2 weeks ahead of you, my husband passed on 1/13/16. I contacted my doctor last week because I needed something to help. Mornings for me are the worst. I'm so full of anxiety but still have to get up to go to work. With my husband here, I had strength to do anything. However sick he was, I could handle it, take care of him, go to work etc. I got my strength from him. Without him, I panic over everything so afraid of what the future will hold that I'll have to deal with solo. The anti-anxiety meds do help a bit. I can be calmer and focus better at work but it doesn't stop me from crying for him every day, several times a day. I pray we both find piece although I believe we're a long way from that right now.
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Sara