Jen, that was a wonderful blessing your mom lived to be be 78. My mom was 66 and it was so sudden. This was the first time in my life i had ever experienced so much pain. Who would have thought it would ever hit so close to home. But, I know one thing no matter their ages we loved them and wanted them to be with us for ever!! I still cry and i am in disbelief but i just take it day by day because now i Know the pain doesnt ever go away you just learn to cope with it.
I know your pain, I ask myself the same question. My mother died on 3/3/10 from stage 4 small cell lung cancer. This is the worst weekend for me. I never knew how important Mother's Day was until now. I want so badly to be able to call her tomorrow. I have a huge whole in the middle of my chest where my Mom use to live. Im trying to make sense out of all of this right now. Hang in there, I've heard it gets better with time.
Jen, my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you. I lost my Mom on 1/30/10, also due to heart and complications. She went in to have her pacemaker replaced, and 12 days later she died. Fortunately she made it age 78. She was also a 2x cancer survivor, and an amazing woman, which I'm sure your Mom was too. Although right now it will seem like total despair, let yourself feel everything, most important don't be afraid to cry and show all how you are. You'll be amazed at the support and love that will surround you.
Seems like we all have something in common. My Mom died last October, heart condition, I also found her dead in her backyard. She was young, and so am I, 33, which makes it hard. I had good days though I have to be honest, some days I have bad moments. It's only about 6 months and it is getting a little easier, I think that it is and then I'll have a complete melt down. This is all normal. My Mom was my best friend, I saw her everyday, we did almost everything together. My two boys were her life, she focused on them and out family and all of us are learning to live without her. Although I know it is normal to grieve and feel sorrow, you need to try and celebrate the good things around you, other family and friends, especially if you have children. As horrible as this experience has been, I force myself to see the great memories of her, to talk about her often with a smile on my face to anyone who will listen. I pray a lot, often at night just to be able to fall asleep, that also helps me. But I know the pain, I'm not without it, it will never go away. I just hope you guys can try and find some comfort in your days. I found it good to talk about, because people who have not felt this will not understand until you tell them. Then it can get easier because you wont feel so alone.
my mom too died unexpectly of a heart condition dec 2008 and i was the one who found it is very hard to this day dealing with death i have so many up and down emotions i cry all the time i miss her every day and need her so much i wish she was here to see my children grow its so hard i will tell u the pain will be there for a long time and nothing anything some one says will help it get better it takestime and i dont know how long each day i wake up and say i made another day
I'm so sorry for ur loss u have to be strong there is gonna be a plenty of days where u find urself mad sad angry and more u r gonna question God why in most people say u shoud not do that but God understands u are hurting now and he will not hold that agnist u n the long run I found myself askin why more the 10 to 15 times a day if not more we are human n that question is something we all do when we lose someone we truly love or feel we can't live without I lost my mom Sept 09 and it still hurts like yesterday she was my bestfriend........moment......