leslie i feel for u so deeply,i feel the exact same way i just dont know if any one will ever realize out of my other siblings just how close me and my dad was. they was never around,i was constantly and i never wanted nothing from him,we just enjoyed the time we had together i myself dont ever see a light at the end of this tunnel he was my rock,my best friend,and most of all he was my daddy.as i sit at home day after day trying to get out of this rut that i know my dad wouldnt want me in ,its so hard to even get out of bed cause with out him my team no longer exsits. maybe i make no since i feel my life makes no since no more and im sorry. i just wanted to say there is some one out here that knows your pain!
I feel exactly like you do. I lost my dad unexpectedly in Jan. I am the only child and the only one of my friends who has lost a parent. Everyday is a new day and some days are much better than others. There are days that I can't believe he left me and I can't even imagine how I will get through life without him. Then there are days that I just smile because I feel his presence. I know some people may think its strange, but if you let yourself, you will also feel your dad. I always thought people were nuts, but its different when its your own family. There are days that I talk to him and days I cry to him. Just know that your dad loved you and will always watch over you. I know the holidays are going to be super hard, I'm also not looking forward to them. We just have to be thankful for the years we had with our dads and know we will always love them even 40 years from now.
Leslie, I'm sorry for the loss of your Dad........mine passed away very suddenly too, last february. Like you, I am at peace that I had left no unfinished business with my Dad.....he was 81, so each time we said goodbye ( we live very far apart) we always knew it might be the last time. It was still such a shock though.....that is what has caused me more angst. the trauma when I recieved that call from my sister, telling my children that their grandpa was gone......looking back, I know my dad was ready, so I don't feel like there was much else he needed to be here for- but we miss him very much! take care, jen