Lisa. I'm so sorry for your loss. Loosing a Mom leaves a hole in your heart that no one can fill but it does get a little better as time goes on. I just try to think of all the good times and not dwell on the bad. I lean on my son a lot and that helps. Anytime I feel like crying, I do but I also can remember the fun times we shared, my mom and I, and now am smiling part of the time too. Thinking of you and hope you will soon be able to feel a little better. You just have to take each emotion and deal with it, from the anger to the guilt and anything else that it brings out. And remember we have all gone through it or will sometime. You're in my heart and my prayers.