Thank you for reaching out to me that means a lot. I was thinking about finding a group to join. I thought I could do this by myself but I can't. Every little thing reminds me of him and I start to cry. We have horses and they keep me very busy. But on the other hand it also hurts because it was our dream and now I am living it by myself without him. So I will take your advise and join a group with others that have dealt with the same thing I am going through and will understand how I am feeling. Thank you Mike