Hi Mo, thank you for taking the time to leave a comment. You would not believe how much that meant to me. I feel the exact same way. I had been begging him to come see me. I did have a dream about him once and I was able to tell him that I love and miss him. Was your Dad able to talk to you? Were you able to talk to him? I know that it is a hard road to go down, but I know that we are able to talk to each other about our feelings since we know exactly what is going on and what we are feeling. Really meaning the words, "I know how you feel." I am glad that you are seeking help. Do you have a family? Wife? kids? Are they the ones that keep you busy? Mine do, and I don't tell my husband how I feel since he tends to get mad that I am still mourning... You know, because he says that I am making myself sick.... Well, keep in touch and know that I am all ears if you need to talk... :-)