Patricia,   I don't know if you saw it or not but I started a discussion about getting together for a big group hug and ask if anyone would be interested.  I thought it would be nice and good for us.  I did not have any details worked out as I ask for ideas.  Only about 10 people replied.  I would have thought with all the people on this site more than that would have replied, but I guess to get together would be a big decission.  I just thought it would be nice to do, kinda like the widows that get together in CA.  HUGS, linda gordon

Patricia,

You, your son & family are in my prayers today. I know this is painful. My day is appraoching & I am sick over it. I am glad to hear your plans to be w/ family & friends somewhere beautiful & that you will try to celebrate rather than mourn. Although, our hearts can't be fooled. God bless you. Hang in there. Big hugs (& some tears)~ Christy

Patricia,

You, your son & family are in my prayers today. I know this is painful. My day is appraoching & I am sick over it. I am glad to hear your plans to be w/ family & friends somewhere beautiful & that you will try to celebrate rather than mourn. Although, our hearts can't be fooled. God bless you. Hang in there. Big hugs (& some tears)~ Christy

Hi Patricia ...

I am so very sorry about the loss of your husband.  My husband Ernie passed away April 27, 2011 of pancreatic/liver cancer and I never dreamed I would not have him with me to go through the last lap of our future so I know how you feel.  Sometimes it's a feeling we may just a foothold towards a future for ourselves and then we can slip back without even realizing what hit us.  I hope that you are doing better, but understand that family and friends don't fill the void for you (I feel the same way) as our husbands were part of the group and it's a painful reminder.  In time I am sure it will get better although they will always be in our hearts ... until we meet again.

Hugs

Marcy

Patricia, glad to hear you are getting out & enjoying time w/ your daughter and family. It is hard- beyond words hard. It will be 1 yr. for me in August also. It sucks. I am crying & having some anger issues lately too. I'll/We'll be o.k. but it's hard. I wish you the best today & in the coming days, weeks & so on. Be good to yourself~ Hugs, Christy

Patricia, Thank you for your kind words.  My husband's birthday was July 2 and he loved the beach so my sister and I went to his favorite spot (La Jolla Shores) and it was very therapeutic!  I felt we honored him in the best possible way by doing something he loved.  As for the anniversary of his death, July 10, my children, brother, sister, and their significant others and I met for breakfast.  I did not want a big "to-do" and it was starting to go in that direction.  I actually spent the day away from home; I didn't want to relive everything that happened on that day.  I found last year that I was spending a lot of energy proving to friends and family that I was okay....it was exhausting!  On the one hand, I look back to a year ago and am so glad I'm not in that mind numbing, overwhelming state anymore.  The "year of firsts" is over, thank god....on the other hand I feel he is further away from me if that makes any sense.  I miss him daily and continue to be grateful we had almost 28 years together.  Our 29th anniversary is coming up in August.  I'll figure that out when the time comes I guess!

Patricia, I just read your post about your BBQ for Father's Day - what a great idea.  You are truly blessed.  I loved reading about the butterfly plaque and beautiful sentiment.  I wanted to tell you that I have just written out a list of plants that attract butterflies and I am going to plant a butterfly garden in memory of my husband Jack.  Because butterflies are exquisite and they represent the circle of life and freedom and gentleness, all wonderful things.

 

Have a peaceful and gentle day.

Carol

Patricia,

 

I watched most of the race from Pocono and My wife's favorite driver won his 84 career win. I'm sure she was watching and saying "Go Big Daddy!" as she had for some time when he was contending for a win. She was a big NASCAR fan because of me, I was at one time but the chase and the 48 took a lot of the fun out of it for me.

Patricia, I seem to be spending the day on this site. It replaced church this AM because I got caught up in answering/commenting. I think sometimes that is what God would rather we do. Though some of my coments got "lost". I guess they were not meant to be.

I have taken off to the beach alone too because that is where Wade and I honeymooned. I haven't been so brave as to camp but on our anniversary as well as birthday's I have to get away and change the subject. I think when we go off alone we give ourselves permission to cry more. To listen for any words of comfort that God may have. I think we are surprised when we do get that sign or odd coincidence only we would understand. I pray for your safety and extra insight as you spend this time alone. You are brave and you are doing it. You are living and that is somtimes more difficult than anyone realizes. Rest up and know that you are not alone in this. God go with you.... Hugs Kathleen