Responsa Bias,

Yes, you're right the love had is still there in your heart, mind and soul. When someone we love leaves us the one and only thing they take is the love given to them. It's good to keep sending your love. It's normal to have pain and not get past it or over it. But if you ever read anything I've posted anywhere you will read how I and others with loss of loved ones keep on keeping on. If you feel that you need to keep a smile to hide your pain that's okay. You can do whatever it is that pleases you. Other people will care however everyone that is alive has issues to deal with. When a person you know is spending any amount of time with you that indicates that they care. But know that everyone has a cross they carry but like to put down at times. The splinters are different sizes in every individuals cross. Whatever you want to do such as you wrote that "I try to slip away from everyone that knows me." It's understandable because when we lose a loved one we need the time to feel their love and be with that individual that lives in our hearts. It's okay to cry as often as you need it can help in many ways. It's fine to do whatever you want to do to help yourself. Just remember to "Keep on Keeping On" By this I mean to do some of the same things you have done before. Please try to eat healthy, try to sleep and lay down for even 5 minutes when you can. If you can answer my post and I will check and respond when I can within a 24 hour time lapse.

Sincerely,

Barbara