Sarah, your son was so adorable, my heart goes out to you and your family, i remember when my son was that age and couldn't wait until santa came and brought all his gifts, I will keep you in my prayers.
You are incredibly brave and honest to post you story. I am inspired by your openness. For me the guilt is easing, as you know it hurts your body and soul to dwell on the negative. We all have made mistakes with our children, but not all will admit it. I for one would have changed many things I did if I knew my son was to cross over at only 19 yrs. old.
My dream did not come until 6 months after Adam passed, you are so new in your grief, I wonder if you are even sleeping deeply enuf to dream. Please visit my page and lets keep in touch.
I'M SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS, THE LOSS OF A CHILD IS THE WORSE PAIN, I LOST MY SON JOHN JAN 14TH AND MY HEART IS NOW EVEN IN WORSE PAIN AS MY HUSBAND OF 38TH YRS. PASSED AWAY APRIL 30TH..I'M SO READY TO GO THAT I PRAY GOD TAKES ME SOON. PLEASE KNOW THAT I DO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL, MY SON WAS 36 YRS OLD I DID HAVE HIM LONGER THAN YOU HAD YOUR SON BUT THE PAIN IS THE SAME ...MANY BLESSINGS TO YOU ..MARY ELLEN