Hi Tina. I can so relate to everything you said. I lost my mom on January 8, 2011, and I carry tremendous guist and regret. My mom was 93, and starting to develop light dementia. I never thought she would get old, so I lost patience with her many times. We decided when she became too much of a burden to place her in a nursing home. Oh how I regret that. She lost her mind that day, and never returned. I, also will carry that guilt for the rest of my life. She was a beautiful, kind, caring woman and I can never forgive myself for turning my back on her.
I just lost my mom three weeks ago. My heart is broken, and my life will never be the same. She was a beautiful and kind woman who had much suffering in her final days. I was blessed because she lived to be almost 94 years old, but I thought she would live forever. I am so sorry for your loss. The only thing we can do is live our lives to please God so that when our journey on earth is over we can join our sweet angel mothers once again in heaven