My son was so full of life and love. He would do anything for anyone. He loved helping the disabled kids that I worked with at school and he loved art. He was my sunshine and the best way I feel I can honor him is to continue to share the love that he shared with everyone so easily. He would be devastated to thik he had brought this kind of pain to his family especially his mommy. LOL at 21 he still called me mommy and wouldnt allow anyone else to call me that hahaha. but I have to smile and share my love and feel the joy that he felt.He always told me I was the strongest person he knew so I cant let him down!!!! He still inspires me!!!

Yes I went back just 1 and 1/2 weeks after codys death. I couldnt stand being home and my coworkers were wonderful and very supporitive. I am a custodian at a school so it keeps me really busy.and you are right the emptiness that I feel is so much to take. And with cody being a twin my heart breaks for the rest pf my children and the fact I cant fix their pain.