Hi, It's been 27 months 12 days since my Matthew went home to the Lord. I pray that tomorrow will be the day I get closure. I am suppose to hear from my detective then. My son Matthew, I know had help in his death. Loosing loved ones, is hard enough. I watched my sister die from lung cancer 9 years ago on thanksgiving day. But when it's your child, and they are healthy, and their live is taken from them, so many questions go unanswered. Why, why would someone take the life of one so devoted to helping others, kind, ful of life. and only 30 years old. Yes, like many of you, I too feel others want me to move on, it's easier said then done, especially if they have not experianced it themself. I get through each day by the Grace of God. Like Joseph, who had many trials to go through for the purpose of being able to help his family during drought. I now find myself in a possition to help others where I could not help or be there for Matthew in his time of need. Guilt, yes! Matthew died all alone, with no family there to comfort him, Only his love for his Lord was there for him. I am greatful for that. One day I will go to him, but he will not beable to come back to me. I miss my son more then I let on to others who don't understand, I am so greatful I have this outlet. Please keep in touch and become friends with another brokenhearted mom. Matthew and I were very close. I miss him so much. would love to hear from you.
thanks.