Hey there Eric.  Thanks for the comment.  Like you, I'm still taking it hard myself.  It seems like the pain, sorrow and loneliness never goes away.  It just rears it's ugly head at weird times now.  Yeah, it's been only 3 months for me but it still seems like my partner left only yesterday.  I've made little changes to the routines we use to share but still, all I need is that one tiny memory to set me off.  Like you, I've been crying everyday.  More and more in private now, but sometimes I'll be when I'm driving, going for that jog or watching a tv show.  The hidden pain and tears just take over.  I don't know either when that will stop.  I've met people who have lost someone over 10 years ago and they still get real choked up and teary eyes when they talk about them.  My fear is that those will never go away!  I find myself sitting on the edge of my bed every morning, alone and thinking how this could have happened to us... to ME?  It really sucks.  Then I start cranking up to get ready for the day just wondering what I will go through mentally again.  UGH!  I'm still here though.  So, you have a new friend Eric.  Right now I go to work everyday because I still need to pay my damn bills.  Other than that, I'd probably still be in bed.  Take care buddy.  Hope to hear from you again, soon.