i myself am an alcoholic but i will tell you that even with carl so sick i never picked up that bottle, not that i didn't want to but i chose not too. I hope that you are not. Wen you are watching them wither away in front of your eyes like that you are grieving and cry, i cried alot, but now, oh i don't know i miss him every minute of every day, every decission i have to make alone, dinner i cook for one, things like that but i am so thankful that he doesn't hurt anymore, that gives me peace if that makes sence
Marilyn, I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly what you are going through. Emotions are high and low and for the longest time I too had a hard time crying. I felt very numb. Now there are days that I can tell my story without shedding a tear and other days I can't speak for crying. My daughter gave me a book which I read daily. It is called "I wasn't ready to say goodbye" by Brook Noel & Pamela Blair. I also write in a journal at night before I go to bed and that seems to relieve some emotions. God bless you.
my name is sharon stricklen and i lost my husband in april of lung cancer and i know exactly what you mean about not crying. Carl was sick for 3 years and i slowly watched him slip away from me and i used to cry all the time when he was still with me, actually we cried alot together because we knew what was coming. then when he died and mostly since i dont cry so much but my family says its because i grieved so badly when he was still here. Anyway what you feel is what you feel and what you dont is what you dont, i find this group to be very helpful so maybe you will as well