this year has been a fast one. I went home this summer and saw vicky's house all boarded up.when the fireworks of the parade went off i could feel vicky there enjoying herself like she always did where ever she was. i asked about her give away to honor her but it guess it will be this coming year during the indian days celebration in july. we will dance and give gifts away in vicky's honor. while my mom was in the hospital richard went away i feel vicky is now with her beloved dog. My mom feels that vicky came and got him also. because of this i do not feel bad about richard. I gave a good friend a gift in honor of vicky at the year of her passing. I still miss her beyond words but have since dreamt about her and her humor still prevails in the dream she was happy and smiling. I still cant wrap my mind around the way she died how suddenly and how unexpectedly she crossed over. I still cry when i think about her. I wear the beautiful green necklace she gave me with pride. to those of you who lost someone recently it is very hard and you never get over it. time just makes it more palatable. everytime we speak their name we keep the flame alive, the flame of love burns for eternity because like energy love never dies.
Pamela Nunez-Pitzer's Blog
Posted on April 9, 2011 at 2:22am
well at this writing loss has permeated my life once again. I am not feeling sorry for myself but at times am overwhelmed at the amount of it going on. I lost a cousin a few weeks ago and then a co worker to a suicide. AS we age, we continue to lose people we love all the time. It never gets easier. I am still in the stages of grieving for my aunt and now the other two losses have just added to it.
I havent lost my appreciation for all the beauty and wonder of life. I am closer to… Continue
Posted on February 4, 2011 at 7:59am
Grief, loss, dying death crossing over they all mean the same thing. We come into this world knowing we are here but a short time and then people say our real life begins. my faith and sense of reality have been challenged again. Ive lost alot of cherished loved ones in my life. Its been over twenty years since i lost my grandmother, now i think of her fondly and cherish all she taught me. I feel her presence at times when im working at my nursing job. Now after only a month today after… Continue
Posted on May 9, 2010 at 1:56pm
The year was 1989, i was in school and my friend and I met this beautiful man and he took us on a boat ride and late night swim, he was full of life and very adventurous. I saw him again a few times after that night, unfortunately I couldnt be with this man because it wasnt the right time. The years went by i met my husband had a child, but always wondered what happened to him. I had a dream about him the other night. I couldnt believe it, i hadnt though of him in years. I looked up his name,… Continue
Posted on August 10, 2009 at 11:23pm
well here it is our birthday month, I used to peruse the thrift shops and yard sales and pick out clothes that I knew you would like. I found myself doing this just the other day at a thrift shop me, mom and you went to one day. we had so much fun going from shop to shop and finding fun things. When we were in the car we would listen to the oldies station and you and mom would sing at the top of your lungs! I have so many fun memories esp of when you lived with us in seattle. I can hear your… Continue
Posted on July 28, 2009 at 11:26am
while i was at ecstatic dance on sunday i had a moment of clarity. I realized vicky's death caused a shift in my life and others. My mother adopted her dogs bringing a newfound happiness and purpose to her life. I feel vicky is released into the cosmos and her love is shining on me like a true godmother. After she died i learned more and more about all her accomplishments and honors. I was so surprised because she never mentioned them to me. She didnt brag, instead she let others shine in their… Continue