Hi Sandra thanks for writing back. It is very sad. I am crying with you. NIghts are bad it wakes you up. time and time again. I am getting worn out. I don't think if I had died it would have done this to him. I think being a mom is a one of a kind love that we are lucky enouph to have experienced. That did make me smile. I have a video of him wehn he was 3 or 4 so adorable. and bad. He didn't listen. It was a horrible tragidy. That has left our family without our embassador. Morgan. I love him. Love him Love him. carrie L

Hi sandra just noticed your post and that you are new. I have been on here a while now. It has helped if you can say anything does. I think with no one else in my family experiencing this it helps. I hope you are ok. it is very sad. I can't stop thinking about it. Mornings are the worst for me. in theevening i can almonst concentrate on sleep. It is not supposed to be like this. and there is nothing we can do about it. except keep living and try to do better. we aren't given a second chance with our beloved children. one chance is what we get. I thought i had forever with him. oh how sad i was so very wrong. i am really crushed shattered. is a good word.. you are not alone. sorry we are here. it is a bit better than just non stop thinking and some suppport.. carrie L