I lost my Mom on 9/26/2008,she died of cancer in the gall badder,small intestine and lung. She never smoked or had a drink. She didn't allow smoking around her. It's hard on me and my brothers and sisters. My older brother and next to the youngest sister. Won't visit the website that I dedicated in her memory. I was very close to my mom, we talked all hours on the day. I mean from 4 in the morning until late at night everyday. My job works me all hours of the day and night. My mom was the one that kept me going. I cry everyday for my mom. My boyfriend don't understand his mom is still here. And my mom isn't I have an empty place in my heart for my mom.I smelled her scarf and broke down and cried. My boyfriend she's in a better place and she wouldn't want me to cry and be depressed like I am. But he don't understand I losted someone very dear to my heart. The one person I could tell anything to, and get the best advice. I still don't understand why she's gone, my heart can't accept the lost and pain. Everyone she's in time it will get easlier. I can't she how that is possible, and now Mother's Day in approaching. Thanksgiving and Christmas was very hard. Me and my sister's messed up both dinners. How do we cope with the lost of our mother without feeling the pain and hurt of knowing that we can't see and talk to her again. The house is so cold and plain that we don't even go by there anymore. She was our mother and father we losted both when we losted her.
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casp231 and brownladylove, my heart goes out to you. I lost my mom on 4/15/07 and that first mother's day was so tough, I just stayed home and I found out my siblings did the same thing. I don't expect this one to be much easier but she is so much a part of me as your mom is.
Losing your same sex parent is the worst according to all the books. The mother is the balance in a family. She will be missed forever but she is still with you. Remember her and know that she will be lovsue
I'm so sorry for your loss and losses in the past. You are not alone. I lost my Dad on April 12th 2009(Easter Sunday). I still can't absourb that he is gone. I want so much to call him or visit him. Now I feel so guilty for not spending more time with him, when I had the chance. I go to sleep crying and I start the day with tears, though the last 2 days have been easier. 3 days ago + all I wanted to do is call my family from his side to cry with or just talk, but they all died also. Within 2 1/2 years I lost 9 family members. I'm 41 with no kids of my own and married. The one thing I have been doing is reading books on dealing with losing a loved one. I also pray for my father "everyday" and I pray for my strength, to take away the pain and I ask for blessings to come my way. I found this website and it helps me a bit. I realized the more I stay home (which I prefer to be) the more I cry. So I have been going out lately. You can alway talk with me. : ) Remember our time on earth is not forever. And think about it, if your parents are watching you, do you think they want you crying for them while you are here on earth? NO WAY. You make them proud of you. So you have great stories to share when you get to see them again.
Thank you Casp, I did think of Mom often this week-end. She was a best friend after I was an adult and I treasure every memory of her. My niece got married on saturday evening and she was so beautiful. I could just see mom's smiling face and those dimples and could hear her say, "now,that is a beautiful bride". This young women is 25 and the last grandchild in our family. We all felt Mom's presence there and I know she wouldn't have missed that one. sue
I don't think it is wierd. I think it is a blessing to have any rememberance of them that brings you joy if even for a second. Suep