I am grateful for this site. Thank you for sharing your experience in this most difficult time. My Pop died on this past Christmas Day, 2009. It is so difficult to deal with the pain of missed opportunities. I didn't live in the same state as my Dad so I did not see him as much as I should have. I have regret about that. I miss him so much. I just want one more day, one more hour with him so I could tell him how much he means to me.
I bet you made it through the viewing and funeral. I know I was able to read the eulogy I wrote for my Father and with the help of my cousins and one of my Dad's brothers I was able to make it through. Hang in there and I will too.