Well, my mother passed away on July 7th, 2009, a tuesday. She had been battling cancer for a long time, I can't even really remember. She had it once, had surgery, which we thought was successful for more than a year. The cancer returned, though. It turns out a small bit of the tumor was left inside, and the cancer returned. I think about a lot of things. What if it would've never happened? What was my mother thinking? How did she feel? I feel guilty because my denial about the situation was so deep, I never really expected her to die. My mother and I were extremley close. She had a special relationship with all of her kids, and to me she wasn't just a mom, but my best friend. She's been gone for 7 months now, and I just feel like I'm in a deep hole. I miss her so much. I feel very depressed and don't know what to do. There are days when I feel like I can't get out of the bed, and I don't unless I have to go to work. I just miss her so much. She was such a good person, and remembering how sick she got bothers me. Nobody deserves to go through something like that. Right now, all I can think about is every holiday that passes is the first I've ever had in my life without her. Can somebody please help me out?