My boyfriend always felt bad when I would get upset and start crying. If we were having a serious conversation and my eyes started to fill with tears he would make a funny face at me til I either smiled or laughed. After his sudden death on Christmas Eve morning he came to me in his way. 2 days after he died, I was on the phone with my friend and was hysterically crying. All of a sudden I dropped my signal on my cell phone. When I looked at my phone, I had 3 bars. Every time I cried on the phone I dropped my call but it never happened when I wasn't crying. Then later that night at work (we worked together at the same bar), I started breaking down again. As I cried the light outside the front door, where I was working, began to flicker. I stopped crying. Later when I started crying again, the light flickered again. The light switch is in the office where no one was at. That light has never flickered before or since then. I believe it was his way to make me stop crying since he couldn't make a face at me....may sound stupid but that's what I believe.
I just don't know how to go on.
The pain is so bad, and everybody I speak to who has lost a child even if it was 20 yrs ago they say the same thing the pain never goes away.
So how do you learn to go on?
How do you go on living?
JoAnn Brozowski said: