Hello, I am new to this site. My name is Jamie. My younger brother, Chad, died 4 weeks ago, the day after his 34th birthday, due to a tragic accident. I don't want to go into details, as it is too hard for me, but he took his own life. We are only a 1.5 years apart in age. He lived with me, and leaves behind 6 beautiful children under the ages of 11 years old :( My family and I are just devasted, never would we have thought we would be dealing with losing our Chad. I am so lost and lonely, it has been a nightmare.
I am so so sorry Jamie. Four weeks is still a very fragile time. I understand as my sis took her life in October and I truly know the anguish you are going through. Let it out and mourn, its an unfortunate thing that you have to navigate through. Keep writing to us on here. I am new to this, as well, but have found some comfort sharing with others who are experiencing similar feelings. People who arent in it don't know how to react as they have no frame of reference. Peace write anytime. Bless you and your family.
Well it has been 9 months since my younger brother died. Still seems like yesterday, I can remember every detail of seeing him last when my older brother and I viewed him at the funeral home. I found out about 3 weeks after he passed away that my husband and I were expecting a 4th child. I tell you this, it has been the hardest 9 months of my life. This baby I am carrying, and who is due to arrive next Friday, must be a fighter because I really don't know how we both made it. I still post on my brother's facebook page, I know he will never be able to reply, but I guess it is my only outlet to communicate with him. I miss him so much, I don't think there has been a day in the past 9 months that I have not cried. I cant look at his pictures without just breaking down in sobs. My brother has 6 kids all under the age of 11 years old. I am in 3 of their lives, and his son who is 10 looks just like him. It is very emotional, me being able to be with them and my brother cant. Just so wrong.
I read your post and want you to know you are not alone. I lost my sister Lisa 15 months ago and the pain is still very raw. I read how you post on your bother's Face Book page. I write to my sister everyday still and tell her everything that is going on-so do not feel bad about posting. Lisa's sons (now 25 and 20) are dating and her older son is getting serious with a wonderful girl. I so wish Lisa were here to see this-she would be very proud. He is in PA school and doing very well. My sister-in-law told my Mom and me at Lisa's memorial service that we should create a hope chest of sorts of some of her things, pictures, things she liked to do, etc to give to her sons so they could share with their families so she is never forgotten. Lisa fought so hard to be here. I believe though she is very much aware of our lives in heaven and we will see her again someday.
Take care and best of luck with the new baby-rejoice in his/her birth.
Hi Karen, thank you for the reply. It is very difficult. I hate everything about it. The timing of my pregnancy was so weird, just weeks after my brother died, and I am even being induced to have my baby on one of his daughters birthdays. So I think that is possibly a sign that my brother is with me always and has been. I just don't know when the hurt will get easier, it is just not fair. I am so sorry to hear about your sister. Losing a sibling is just so painful and cruel.
i am so sorry jamie,i lost a good mate to suicide 6 years ago,its devastating is,nt it because there never seems to be any warning signs,if you need anyone to talk to i,m here ok,
I hope things are well with you Jamie. I have not written to the site in a while but saw someone responded to your text and was thinking of you and all the folks on the site. It is now about 3.5 years since I lost my beautiful little sister Lisa. I miss her deeply every day.
So sorry to hear about your loss. I also lost a sister from suicide. The loss of a loved on is always difficult but I think suicide adds another whole dimension of shock, why questions, guilt, depression and every other emotion. Be good to yourself, use your support system and try not to let the "why" overwhelm you.
I can relate, my younger brother aged, 41 died of acute lung infection late August this year. He thought he had flu. I agree with you my life is now out of control. I find people avoid me because they don't know what to say, that makes things worse. I am trying to support my devastated parents as best I can as well as my sister. I live approximately 1 1/2 from them. Really its been a blur. I contacted you because you will understand.