I still have all Karens stuff in the bathroom and all her clothes in the closet. Not sure if I will ever be able to get rid of them. On the outside most people that see me would say I am doing OK, but I am hurting inside. I am lucky I have 3 grandchildren to keep me busy. The middle one,a girl 4 1/2 years old,who was with her Noni[grandma] a few hours before she passed,still wants us to set a plate for here at dinner time and tells here Mom she feels Karens presence.
Jerry, I think most of us here put on a different face while we are out, and at times have a good time but comming home to the empty house and for me it's a house now not a home and to the lonelyness that the evening bring then IF we sleep waking to another sad depressing day, at one point when i would wake up in the morning i would say dam i woke up again because that is how bad i don't want to be here but know i must wait my turn, hugs
Thank you for your advice each and every one of you. Gary passed away 2-22-10 and sometimes I still think it can't be real. I know that it is, but I don't want to believe it down to my very core. I do have pictures of him all through the house and I have a certain belief in the afterlife, but that doesn't seem to help me right now. It's only been six months since he left, but I'm just not convinced that it's going to get better with time.
He was the funny side of me, the kind side, the musical side. I miss him, and I miss "us". It's tough being the one left behind.