I lost my father in 2008, 2 weeks later and my mother was diagnosed w/cancer. I was her primary caregiver until she passed in my arms 9 mos after my dad passed. Several months passed and my husband was diagnosed w/stage 4 lung cancer. I have kept him going now for a year but I/m starting to fall apart. I had to retire to keep my sanity. The other day I had to rush him to the hospital where I was treated with no respect, if I did not step in they would have preformed a procedure on him that would have killed him. I have never felt so defeated and so alone as I feel now. I lost control of myself in the hospital and found myself in the corner on the floor crying uncontrollably and even though he is now home I cannot stop crying. I feel I cannot move forward. I ask God what I did to have such grief all at one time. After he goes that is it I will be alone. I have no parents to talk with and no children to lean on. It will be just me. I yell at him because he has now stopped eating and I find I am yelling more often just because. Well, that is my short version of my life!