I'm afraid of the loneliness, too. As much as I miss Gary the person, I know that I also miss being married. I've only been alone for 5 weeks, and already the difference is huge. I want to tell him things and I need his opinion. It's so hard to do it alone. I'm not looking for a replacement but I feel a little like I'm losing my mind and I'm so alone in my thoughts.
I've only had a couple of dreams about him and they weren't all good.
I took so many photos of Gary in our time together that I couldn't possibly say it wasn't real, but I miss being happy so much.