Today is 8 months since Larry passed away.

Well today is 8 months since my Larry passed away and 19 years for his Dad. My mother-in-law made her usual morning call to me. Does she remember either one? NO. I can't believe that she is so self centered and oblivious. I don't know what I expected...she never remembered Larry's birthday for the past 10 years and he is her only child.
Today winter has made one last return for the season...we are getting a snow storm. I don't expect anyone to come over today so I am staying in my pajamas and going to go watch movies on Larry's big screen TV. Something I haven't done since he passed. I'll probably watch his video that was played at his funeral too. I'll cry, but it also brings back lots of good memories of times we spent together. I don't want to do anything else today. I am tired of putting on the brave front. Today I will allow myself to feel sorry for myself. I know I shouldn't, but that is how I feel today. Tomorrow I will get back to the routine and do things I should be doing today. But today I feel like to h*ll with everything. I don't want to do it.
Take care Yvonne

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Permalink Reply by Yvonne on April 9, 2010 at 7:00pm

Lois, She is self centered like your step mom. When she comes over she can never shut up long enough so you can tell her something important. You have to say just wait I want to tell you something important. She is in her own world and it is the only thing that matters. Actually, she is not mentally ill but still lives in the 40's.
Yes I love that picture of Larry. We were on a fly in fishing trip and the fish he is holding is the biggest he had ever caught. He was so happy and excited, and we went on to catch big fish like that for the rest of the afternoon. We had a blast.
No more trips with my fishing buddy. Thanks honey, it was a lot of fun. I love you.
Yvonne

Permalink Reply by BoLynn on April 9, 2010 at 8:39pm

Awwww, love that picture of Larry and his fish. Happy memories to be sure. Have a good "memory" day. Mine will be on the 18th, our 29th wedding anniversary.

Permalink Reply by mary on April 9, 2010 at 9:58pm

dear woman
do what you need to do
i understand and seems perfectly right to me
go with your feeling and yourself for what you need
take care, sweetie
mary

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